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defeat from the jaws of victory

June 8, 2003 — Leave a comment

i’m not a huge cricket fan, i stopped watching west indies cricket sometime in the mid 80s. i have a policy when sports start bring tears to your eyes, it’s time to stop. the wi cricket team, of late, is one of these teams, that always seems to have all the resources and everything in their grasp but at the last moment, completely screw themselves. 

i’m the process of looking for jobs, both for vic and myself. i’ve expanded the search to canada. there must be a job somewhere in the world for me. actually the job is not the problem, it’s the passport. as the global marketplace expands, borders seem to close, especially if you’re a third world resident. with the exception of the uk, there is almost nowhere in the world, that a trinidadian passport that can get you without jumping through a large number of hoops. what’s interesting is that it’s a cakewalk for people travelling in the other direction. even travelling within the caribbean is an exercise in pulling teeth. us citizens can travel to barbados with any form of photo id, not so for any of their caribbean neighbours. life is funny sometimes. 

now the news: 

Is Lying About The Reason For War An Impeachable Offense? 

size friendly vacation club 

‘secretary’ comes to australia (love this movie) 

and your moment of zen compliments wal-mart 

thank you and good night

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happy, happy, joy, joy

June 8, 2003 — 1 Comment

the rains are here and i think they are here to stay. the skies are grey, and it rained all morning. it’s a lovely thing to wake up to the sound of rain thundering down on your roof. it hasn’t done much for the heat. i’m sitting around in my boxers, the sweat pouring off my body. 

i was watching the mtv movie awards at a friends this morning and there were a couple things that bothered me… 

first – Tatu, could that performance be any more manufactured? i watched them and their entourage of women (some of whom appeared to have left school about the same time i did) in school girl uniforms, gyrate and ham it up for the audience. maybe something is right with me, but if it was supposed to titillate, it didn’t i just thought none of the gay women i know behave like that. it was just a show for the desperate young men who think the jiggle of a bra less breast or the hint of a hardening nipple is the holy grail. 

which brings me to my second point, is there a shortage of bras in hollywood? or is it just to help mtv? 

on to my third and final point, this is going to be long, so sit back and get comfortable… 

what is it about dressing children, especially prepubescent girls like $2 crack whores and their pimps? 
these are little children, they don’t need to make hipster pants and bra tops in their sizes, because they lack either and if they do have them they should not be on display. over the last couple of days i’ve noticed this disturbing trend, from the little 8 year old who showed for a casting  in an (i do no lie) off the shoulder midriff top, denim mini and thigh high boots, to some little girl who won an award on the show in hipster pants that she had to keep pulling up because, you have no hips yet, little girl. sigh. maybe i’m old fashioned, but i have two girls. i’m not advocating bubbles and frilly smocks. i’m advocating comfort and childhood. jeans, tshirts, shorts, vests. the occasionally pretty dress when the occasion calls for it. 

my mother used to tell me, that it wasn’t so much delinquent children as delinquent parents. and i tend to agree, how can you dress you child like that? how can you willingly look at your child and think – hey, she looks like a small version of me, that’s good. IT’S NOT! this is not your younger sister or a barbie doll. this is a child, to which you as a parent bear some responsibility. 
and this is not just about the girls either, do you think dressing them like little thugs has no effect on their behaviour? 
sigh, the people that need to read this will never see it, but i just needed to get it off my chest. 

i’m going to give this movie my undivided attention, i’ll be back later with links and your moment of zen.

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conform! consume! obey!

June 7, 2003 — Leave a comment

just got back from see the matrix reloaded again. it was as much fun the second time around. it was a lovely end to a lovely evening. i went and had dinner and a beer with k, then we went off to the movies. all evening i’ve been wondering what vic’s been up to and talking about her constantly. it’s nice to be able to talk to someone who understands and doesn’t just roll their eyes and think here he goes again. 

i really should be sleeping, i have the call for this shoot in about 5 hours. i’m addicted, not really, it’s just posting gives me an opportunity to clear my mind. it’s like a reset button, i can channel all my distress or any thing i’m obsessing about here and as you can tell i obsess a lot. 

i’ve been noticing a change in the quality of my spam of late, i used to get tons and tons of porn, now my spam is mostly about penis or breast enlargement, viagra or the most amusing of all rogaine. i need none of these products and if i did why would i buy them from people who can’t spell far less put a proper sentence together. there was no point to that, it’s just one of the things i obsess about. 

i was talking to k tonight about really funny animation online and i realised she still hadn’t seen weeeeee! by threebrain (so k this is especially for you and for anyone else who’s never seen it go now!) we were also discussing our love for mittens & snowdrop, little goth girl, mr. snaffleburger and samurai lapin and you can see all of these at the other side and for all of you that become fans, there are images for LJ and avatars as well. 

knock yourselves out. keifel go bye bye.

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linking you to the world

June 6, 2003 — Leave a comment

webby award winners 

bush: ‘we’ll reveal the truth’ (and if you believe that i have a bridge to sell you, politicians lie, it’s in the job description) 

pride month news: (in)justice dept. bans event by gay staff 

and face off of the week: o’reilly vs franken (winner on points – franken) 

be back later with a further wrap up.

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we interrupt this programme for…

June 6, 2003 — Leave a comment

so my tattoo guy came today for the interview, my boss is pleased. if we can just compromise on what we can pay, we’re on like socks. the kind of work i think we can produce is fucking amazing. we can play off each other’s strengths. we can change the face of advertising in the country (mwah hah ha ha ha) and then the world (equally sinister laugh here)

an observation on html and characters i usually put the sinster laughter in between the great than and less that symbols but i just remembered that in html those are used as instruction markers, so i have to settle for regular brackets. (just a little geek knowledge.)

on with our story…

i still haven’t done a lick of work for the morning, too busy watching roger dodger and making last minute arrangements for the shoot in the morning. it is amazing the amount of time that’s spent preparing, planning, organising what will well turn into 3 minutes of actually shooting.

i also realised that my spelling is terrible, i should be ashamed, but i’m not really, just appalled, i’ll trying to do a better job of it in the future. in a what could be construed as a sign vic got a memo about taking time off from work upon her return today. we’ve decided we’re not backing down, she’s coming to see me one way or another, it’s been far too long. we’ll burn that bridge when we get to it.

as he was leaving today the tattoo guy asked me if i was coming around to get more ink this weekend. my back is healing quite nicely and i’m thinking i should just get it continue a-pace, i have nothing else on the plate this weekend. no formula one, no parties, nada. 

i have darren’s machine which i’ll get organised tonight but otherwise i have diddly squat to do all weekend. invitations for lunch, dinner, movies are all welcome.

now back to your regularly scheduled programme…

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adventures in breakfast

June 6, 2003 — Leave a comment

doubles are a uniquely trinidad delicay made of channa (chickpeas) wrapped in barra (lightly fried… tortilla… would probably the best description). because of where i live and work and their proximity to each other it’s almost impossible to get one, much less a good one. i haven’t had a good doubles in weeks. 

i’m balancing how much cash i have, how much i need to travel and get me through the day, how much needs to be done this morning at work and how difficult it is for me to detour to go and get some doubles. i tire of the pastries from the bakery downstairs my office. 

my cashflow at the moment is somewhat strained, waiting on the annual report (project from hell from about a week ago) cash to come in and we have to reselect models for the shoot this weekend per my boss’ insturctions. somehow i think doubles are out. i should actually be getting ready for work as we speak, but here i am blogging and checking my mail. 

i would really rather stay home and work this morning (actually i just want to stay home) but we’ve got preproduction on this weekend’s shoot and a couple of shoots over the next couple of weeks. sigh. and the interview. 

i’m going to get going, while i can stil convince myself but before i go, here is your moment of zen

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no one expects the spanish inquisition

June 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

didn’t expect that did you?  i love monty python, found the official website 

i’m talking to vic and waiting for her to finish her post. it’s such a joy to be able to talk to her. our 10pm im sessions have been a part of my life for almost three years. 🙂 interrupted only by the 10pm phone calls for the 6 months i was in fl. i miss hearing her voice, just before i fell asleep. the night before vic left to go off to the wild blue yonder, i called and read to her. i hadn’t realised how much i’d missed that. it’s the simple things that make life worthwhile. 

i’m going to bed now, one night closer to curling up in bed with my love. i’m not maudlin or depressed. i feel blessed and happy to have this woman in my life and as a friend pointed out, when you find someone so perfectly suited, you should expect to jump through some hoops to prove your worthiness for such a prize. 

gnight, pleasant dreams to all.

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real women have curves

June 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

so i’m trying random subject lines. but from stuff that’s going on  in my life, it may not necessarily have anything to do with the acutal post, but rest assured it reflects something that influenced me today. 

i’m also reclaiming the term pear-shaped as a good thing. i just have to figure out another term for the absolute mess my day attempted to turn into. i just gave up on working this afternoon and finished watching ‘real women have curves’ which was real sweet (america ferrera is gorgeous), i tried to leave early and then got stuck in a pre production meeting with my boss. 

what is interesting is my job gets more interesting everyday as my workload increases. this is my last month on probation and my boss is introducing me to people as the creative director. not a title i object to. even if i don’t get paid for it, it looks great on a resume. i spoke to vic this afternoon as well (dance of joy, dance of joy), as a friend of mine pointed out, i’m making it sound as if we’re on the same landmass, but you take your joys as you can. this has been the longest we’ve been without any kind of communication. 

the itching has started. always the least fun part of getting a tattoo, i’ve got a boatload of tabs open, following links, keeping myself distracted. 

thsirt hell (guaranteed to offend someone) 

Department of Justice finds “significant problems” in the detainment of aliens after Sept. 11. (duh?) 

the camel toe report (believe it or not, there is an entire site dedicated to it, some people just have to much time on their hands) 

and your moment of zen 

i’ll be back later, i’m going to hunt and gather. hunger is starting to get the best of me.

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the zen of tattoos

June 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

vic is back. woo hoo.
today is now official perfect. 

yes, the simple things in life make me happy. forget the rest of crap that’s going wrong today (tattoo guy bailed on the interview today, the phones in the office are down, my boss has thrown a monkey wrench into my carefully arranged shoot this weekend (yes, it is thursday, she’s changing models…) and my anger towards her has sucked all the inspiration for this new campaign out of me.)

my love is back and right now that’s all that matters. i’m going to finish watching real women have curves see if that doesn’t bring some light back in brain. if that doesn’t work, i’m taking the work home. there is a certain comfort and inspiration to sitting around my house working.

i mentioned in another post, that i reach an almost zen like state when i get ink. it’s kind of hard to explain, you tune out most of the pain and focus on the hum of the machine, breathing, drifting. it’s an amazing feeling, then when it’s done, there is the tingling sensation on area that’s been tattoo’d grounding you almost. or it could just be me.

anyway, i’m back to the grind. links and more later.

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i live to beta test

June 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

just an early morning post to test the music feature on JS.

i’m trying not to be exceptionally late for work, i have an interview to conduct. i don’t think i’m a bad manager particularly but i’ve never liked being interviewed and i think it shows, i come off as abupt. time to get going, i’ve got a long day ahead, the high point of which is vic’s return. i’ve missed her fiercely, but gladly i haven’t been all whiny, i feel positive and at the breakdown point i got some ink, which usually puts me in a zen like place. (i’ll explain later)

in other news vic’s ticket is booked for a july visit. i wont start counting down the days just yet, things have a habit of going pear shaped at the last minute. i’m saying prayers to all the divinities and keeping all my appendages crossed.

off to save the world, peace.

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