i`m thankful for the friends and well-wishers this week. wednesday was really a low point for me, but since then i`ve gotten a lot of support. things are under control, not entirely through my own machinations, but because people have stepped up to help me. from the smallest offer to say a prayer to material […]

we were shooting in the airport this morning, so i took a golden opportunity to get on a scale.

it`s a good thing my heavy ass doesn`t have fucking heart problems. i have hit a benchmark that has always been my upper marker.

i am three hundred pounds. i`m traumatised. the fact that i don`t […]

in all my rage yesterday, i forgot to mention that both the shoots yesterday went well.

the really cool thing is that the photographer is shooting digital. he`s got a 22 megapixel digital back connected via firewire to his laptop. it`s a modified 4×5 camera with a digital processor where the film loader would be […]

showered, fed, doing breathing exercises.

i am the man with a plan.

this too shall pass.

i have one plan and if i have one plan, that means i`ll come up with others and sure enough they`re already forming.