i like to drive. i really learned to drive from my mother. when i was growing up we owned a mini and she drove that thing like it was formula one car. i learned about drafting from my mother. my mother would find a bus or truck have it pull us along for and bit […]

i`m getting better, thank you for all the comments, ims and emails. i know all of this is just temporary, i think i was just overwhelmed yesterday.

i`ve been resting all day, trying not to think about anything. and now the us grand prix is on and the weather is wreaking havoc. it`s setting up […]

i had a panic attack today, actually multiple attacks. this is new for me, i`ve never felt anything so paralysing and debilitating. i was supposed to go out this afternoon. i just lay in my bed and shook, i couldn`t find the strength to do anything.

i`m not sure where this came from, some of […]

this is the third or fourth time i`ve started writing this entry. i haven`t been able to get into it, i have no idea why. probably the same reason i didn`t post yesterday.

my thoughts are all jumbled, i`m trying to sort out my life. the malaise and unease are back, but i don`t feel […]

i was wondering why that bus ride has been on my mind so much of late, this week is three years since i met vic in person. september 21st 2000.

time flies when you`re having fun. it`s hard to believe another olympics will be on us again. i wonder where we`ll be this time around.

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on my first trip to meet victoria, i travelled for more than 30 hours.

my journey started in the wee hours of the morning in trinidad. the original itinerary was by air, trinidad – maimi and then by car – miami to knoxville. seemed simple enough. it wasn`t

the flight leg was fine, […]