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a couple of quick links

May 25, 2003 — Leave a comment

it’s been a long and shitty day and vic is away for the weekend so i didn’t even have her company to look forward to tonight.

but here are some quick links before i turn in for the night. i need to get some fucking sleep, no more slacking off next week, i am the art department at work, til i find a new slave (whoops, juniour artist) and the copy writer wouldn’t know good writing if it jumped up and smacked her around a bit. so more shit for me to deal with. boy am i looking forward to going to work tomorrow.

anyway, the links…

The Disney Doctrine: The Ten Commandments of Childhood

Read it and weep – the independent (uk) looks at book we loathe the US Govt. isn’t so concerned about what behaviour breaches the (Geneva) convention, anymore

thank you and good night.

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flat on my face tired

May 25, 2003 — Leave a comment

yesterday was packed to the gills with all the fun shit that makes life so enjoyable and interesting.

the birthday lunch for my younger daughter went off fairly hitchless, my older daughter was here as well and a good time was had by all. sometime in between all of this i found time to finish the cover for the annual report, attempt to deliver it to the client, come back home, wash my hair get dressed and be very late for the media excellence awards.

my date for the evening was the always lovely karen (who i must say looked stunning) and i think we made quite the impression, got there late, but then made the rounds hilton poolside for the free food and drink. we weren’t sure if it was me in the sarong and red shirt or the small muscular indian woman in the hot dress by my side or the combination of the two.

we left the media awards around 11, wandering sort of aimlessly, well not entirely, planning to swing by after dark to see who was about and show off karen in her hot femme duds, she was just too hot, we left a little after 4am.

which brings us up to speed, i’m working on corrections to the annual report, i’ve had 3 1/2 hours sleep and now i have a shitload of corrections to do. joy.

i’ll be back.

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back with some perspective

May 24, 2003 — Leave a comment

the project i’m working on is still not done, but i’ve made major headway. the important pages are with the client for proofing.

in personal news, i was just rereading vic’s last post and realising that it need some perspective.

here some perspective in your eye (and tell me if you notice any parallels):
vic met someone online, fell in love, got married, moved lock, stock and child to be with her husband, couldn’t work, got depressed, hubby wasn’t quite what he purported to be, vic got more unhappy, more depressed, husband got weird and verbally abusive, vic packs it in and returns home. fast forward some months later, vic meets someone else online, falls in love…

i understand vic reluctance to move here. i haven’t been the best spokesman for trinidad, her worries about getting a job. the last time she moved away with her, she was at least on the same continent. i think she should come clean with her mother, but having some mother issues of my own, i understand her position there as well.

a day later, i’m no longer as angry and upset as i was. vic and are going to make it somewhere, somehow. if she comes and decides she can’t live in trinidad, that’s not going to be the end of the world. we are just going to have to ensure that there are no 8 months windows where don’t see each other.

the bottomline is i love victoria, more than i have ever loved any human being and i’m not giving her up for anything.

today is the piglet’s birthday, so i’m off to spend some quality time.

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just in case anyone wants to know how i’m doing…

May 23, 2003 — Leave a comment

Application Type: I130, IMMIGRANT PETITION FOR RELATIVE, FIANCE(E), OR ORPHAN Current Status: Your I130 IMMIGRANT PETITION FOR RELATIVE, FIANCE(E), OR ORPHAN was received on March 4, 2002. We mailed you a receipt with information about processing. It is taking between 990 and 999 days for us to process this kind of case. We will mail you a decision as soon as processing is complete.

this figure is up from the original 225 days stated on the petition and the 500 – 600 just last month.

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May 22, 2003 — Leave a comment

and other news in brief

Robert Byrd speaks to the senate about the situation in Iraq – “The Truth Will Emerge”

more corporate irresponsibility

something i missed from my animation extravaganza, a flash animation of a dr.who episode written by douglas adams

and finally something dear to my heart, the world’s largest literary festival

anyway the hours are ticking away and i still have a great deal of work to finish. special hello to tillah willah who feels left out because she hasn’t been blogged. and didn’t get to see the matrix before us even though she’s in london.

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29 hours and counting

May 22, 2003 — Leave a comment

so i have less than 29 hours to finish this project. i like working under pressure, i think i do my best work at the last minute. it also helps keep me distracted to the fact that it’s been 8 months to the day since i saw victoria last. that’s right kiddies, almost enough time for the birth of a child. i was reading victoria’s blog yesterday and thinking about a sight i must have made on the train ride back. i had no one to hide my tears from and after 5 wonderful days, i was devastated. there is something even more heart breaking about leaving vic at an airport or watching her get on a plane. it’s like we’re stealing these tiny moments. these 8 months have been some of the most difficult and try in my life. i working on seeing vic next month and steal a few more moments but i don’t know if i have the strength to watch her get on another plane and begin the count til i see her again.

off to work

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send my your poor huddled masses, yearning to be free

May 21, 2003 — Leave a comment

but not yet, and not before they’ve jump through a few hoops first.

so the fingerprint thing (story here) has quite a few people in trinidad getting there panties in a bunch, i would be upset too, but i’ve already been fingerprinted like a common fucking criminal twice (you put up with a hell of a lot for love) and with any luck, the should have been processed by the fbi (this was done since mid-feb (the day before st. valentine’s to be exact)

this is all part of the process i’m currently going through.

am i happy about it? oh hell fucking no.
am i putting up it for the great good? fuck yes.

the only thing that gives me comfort is that with this and all other pogroms, the pendulum will swing back. there was the mccarthy era, the pendulum swing back to camelot, then back to nixon, then to carter… you get the generally idea. the major problem in the us is the lack of balance, everything is done to excess, always. the masses accept whatever is handed to them and in this age of all pervasive media, it’s become much easier to dispense the bullshit. i firmly believe that GWB will do whatever it takes to get a second term (well first actually won) in office, the best we/you can hope for is that he doesn’t kill us all before the time is up and the masses will be able see the shit that’s stuck to them.

i should probably exercise some care with what i say, because i’m begging askance at uncle sam’s door stop and in this age of the patriot act, anything i say, can and will be held against me, but you know what – FUCK THAT!

i have a brain, i can see right from wrong. i love vic dearly, but if moving to the us to be with her means giving up higher brain functions and giving into fear of persecution, we definitely need to find somewhere else to live.

thank you and good night

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animated

May 21, 2003 — Leave a comment

ok, i just took a job that needs to be delived in less than 40 hours, this means i should not be fucking around here, but i’m easily distracted and i like working under pressure. not really i’m just not inspired at the moment. 

i thought in the interim i would post some of my favourite animation links: 

home of samauri lapin, mitten and snowdrop and the little goth girl – the other side 

the joy of tech 

home of the viking kittens 

and now the news… 

How to create a golem (no not a gollum, there is a difference) 

A meat tree 

Bush and Clear Channel 

keep yourself amused, i’m going to try and do some work. 

ciao!

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and we’re back

May 21, 2003 — Leave a comment

some sense of duty has brought me back to the office. i am excited, i want to talk to someone about what i have just seen, the matrix is visually exciting, it lacks some of the punch of the first installment but i really enjoyed. 

vic is not online, which in itself is supremely disappointing, i want to blather on about what i did today, how much fun i had and even though i had all this fun, nothing seems quite the same without her. 

i’m sitting here, listening to the nattering of the staff around me and the solid click, click, click of the keys under my fingertips as i type and all my thoughts are focussed on willing vic back to her machine, hearing the little sound that aol makes when someone new logs on. which in itself is funny, i left my computer at home today because i knew that i would have very little need for my mobile office. i got in this morning and immediately dl aim to see if i would get an opportunity to talk to vic, no luck, i’m back and she’s not here. sigh. 

i have a low level headache, not sure if it’s having missed lunched or what i call the refresh rate headache. 

i have a theory, actually i have a few but this one is that because i spend so much time in front of a computer  screen (about 80% of my waking day) my eyes have become accoustmed to the 67Hz refresh rate of the monitor and the 30fps of movies just does something to my blink reflex (this could be complete and utter shite, but 9 times out of 10, i come out of the movies with a headache) 

i have another 40 minutes of work and nothing to do, so i’m going to check the news and read my fellow bloggers. i’ll be back later with news and views.

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today is the day

May 21, 2003 — Leave a comment

it’s like fucking christmas, i haven’t been up this early in a long time. i so need to get a fucking life. 

so i’m bright eyed and bush tailed, dispensing fashion and relationship advice early in the morning. 
i seem to excel at giving advice, but i can’t follow my own for fucking hell. i call it the sisyphus complex (for those of you who don’t know he was, according to homer (go look it up, i can’t explain everything), the wisest and most prudent of mortals but was condemned by the gods to ceaselesly roll a rock to the top of a mountain whence it would roll back down and the process would begin anew) 
anyway the crux of this theory is – i can see other people’s problems (or rock) clearly because i have perspective, but in my own life, i’m standing behind the rock, so i all i know it is continually an uphill battle. but sometimes more often than not you need to step away and seize up the size of the rock, cause what you believe to be a boulder might in fact be a pebble. 

on this note i would like to believe i have some perspective in my life, but based on my rollercoaster emotional state i doubt that very much. again, i’m try to hold on to the joys in my life and let that be my focal point, i still haven’t heard from santo domingo, but i will in due course, sitting at home and mulling over it, is not going let the process go by any faster. i’m not getting the other cushy job (they have no budget – i believe they may have over extended themselves in an effort to keep one of their current art directors) but i have a free reign at the job i do have and i’m doing work that i can be proud of. 

speaking of which one of the directors of the company came in about a week after i started working there, show me an ad that had been reproduced elsewhere and he wanted to liberate elements for an ad he wanted built for another company he run. yes, he plagerised (that’s actually being polite) and now he’s been caught and catching flak for it. and by some extension so am i, because people talk, what’s funny is that in this culture where people have no respect for the work of others, people are point and staring and laughing but a patently guilty of the same thing. i would think (and this is just me), if you too had cocoa in the sun you would want to be a little more circumspect about pointing and laughing. (how many fucking metaphors did i mix there – jesus, i need to get some more control over my thoughts) 

i said last night that i had a lot of shit to talk about, well that was some of it. there is a lot more, but i really need to get to work now, i have to make sure everything i need to do is done before i leave this morning. 

have a great one.

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