i know i promised to get back with all the details of my bureaucratic hell, but you know what… fuck it, fuck them. i’m not going to let these people upset me.
i spent 20 minutes on the phone spelling and respelling my name, before being told by some functionary that they don’t know it’s me, so even if they weren’t severely understaffed and could be troubled to look for my application, they couldn’t tell me if they had it.
i haven’t done a lick of work all day, just sat around and pretended to be busy. i’m waiting on copy, i could probably write my own but i don’t feel like.
vic and i discussing her moving here (trinidad) at least temporarily, i think a lot of her misgivings about trinidad are my fault, i’m not; as sam pointed out when she called to gloat about going to see the matrix this evening; the poster child for this country, i’m not happy here and it shows.
but it’s all about compromise, i’ve been married almost 18 months and seen my wife less than 10 days, there is something inherently wrong about that. this is not a voluntary seperation, it gets harder and harder with each passing day. it doesn’t help when people ask “why you still here?” or “you don’t miss your wife?” what kind of stupid insensitive shit is that?
i hate having to explain this shit to people over and over. i’m still here, my wife isn’t! what the fuck do you want from me, blood?
i’m going to the canadian embassy tomorrow in the hopes of trading on my father’s migration shortly after my birth. there is something almost comical about trading on the legacy of a man who i barely know, almost 32 years after his departure from my life. this has to be some major karma.
i’m hold on tenuously to the joyful thoughts of how happy vic makes me and the beauty and intelligence of my children. that should be enough shouldn’t it?
thank you keith knight.
i’m already late for work this morning but i’m going to call santo domingo this morning. i’m sitting here catching up.
and now the news in brief:
Bob Graham Alleges a 9/11 ‘Coverup’
Professional demotivators (as if we really need this)
always end on a high note:
Happy Fun Pundit’s Top 10 Thing I Hate About Star Trek
there was something i saw last night but i can’t remember what it was, but as soon as i do, it will be here. and as promised my rain poem, titled funnily enough – rain
rain
come rain beat your timeless tattoo on my skin. caress my warm dark skin with your millions of cool, tiny fingers entice me with the pungent aroma you release lull me, compose me with the drumbeat that is sometimes gentle or staccato but most of all rain love me.
i’ll be back in a few mintues with news from my personal bureaucratic hell
i wasn’t around earlier because i was doing other stuff (no i haven’t gotten a life all of a sudden), it’s tuesday, and it’s may. therefore, the penultimate episodes of gilmore girls and smallville.
now that they are over, i can return to my other life online. i’m not going to be here for very long, vic isn’t online and i’m a worry wort.
so here is the news in brief:
for us here in the caribbean and east cost of the us (best viewed on thursday) – the total lunar eclipse
and then there is this tidbit – there are no WMD in iraq (all of those who knew that all those months ago – say ‘aye’)
and finally some entertainments from dan savage
there will be more tomorrow, but i’m tired and worried about my wife.
thank you and good night.
the rains have begun. you haven’t lived til you’ve stood and felt warm caribbean rain falling on your face.
it’s raining now and i can hear it beating on the galvanised sheets on the roof. it’s one of the most soothing sounds in the world, makes you want to be curled up in the arms of your honey and wasting the day away. a long time ago i wrote my first and only rain poem, i think in tribute of the first day of the rainy season, i’ll include it here. (if i can just find the damn thing…)
ok, after some searching i can’t seem to find it on my computer, it’s probably on backed up on a cd somewhere. i’ll post it later.
back to the search for images.
today i’m going to hit the 1000 visitor mark, as it stands i’m 11 visitors short at the writing of this post. (well eight, the bots that show up when i update, so i should not count actual 1000, but minus the bot visits and then count that as my actually total?)
well, if i can figure out who is my 1000th(ish) visitor, i figure out something nice to do for you.
in my care package from vic i got my shaver, so i got up early and took a shave, not the smoothest in the world, but i’m less bushy. i’m supposed to clean up to go to work today, i may be required to attend a presentation, (i don’t want to go *whine*) there are a couple reasons i dislike presentations
1. they’re boring
2. it’s mostly bullshit
3. i could be doing real work
time for me to go find a compromise in my wardrobe which brings me to
4. i have to clean up
generally i go to work in a tshirt, jeans and a pair of old nike slipper (soccer slip-ons for those of you not familiar with the vocab), today, i’m going to have to wear, a shirt (ironed), slacks (also ironed) and shoes (i loathe shoes). i also hate ironing, i only do it for my daugher, well because she is the fruit of my loins.
ok, it’s raining, so i have an excuse to wear enclosed footwear.
until later i bid you a fond adieu
| Your Ultimate Purity Score Is… | ||
| Category | Your Score | Average |
| Self-Lovin’ | 41% When I think about you – or anyone – I touch myself |
62.7% |
| Shamelessness | 59% It takes a couple of drinks |
77.8% |
| Sex Drive | 47% I got needs, baby, you gotta unnastan’! |
76% |
| Straightness | 5% Knows the other body type like a map |
41.9% |
| Gayness | 57% Had that experience at camp |
80.8% |
| Fucking Sick | 77% Refreshingly normal |
88.7% |
| You are 49% pure Average Score: 70.6% |
||
i finished watching secretary. this movie is so amazing on so many levels. i’m in love with this movie, let’s not even begin to talk about how much i love the theme. i’m also very thrilled because i got a care package from victoria today. i haven’t done anything else all evening, i’m just checking out the newssites trying to catch up on the days events
here are a few of the highlights:
the smoking gun tv (your favourite legal news website, goes to the small screen, hosted by the hilarious mo rocca)
operation strangelove – raise money for groups still working hard for peace, justice and relief in Iraq.
and justice for all – judge awards $108,000 in attorney fees in car-trouble lawsuit (trust me there is a point to this)
or maybe there isn’t justice for all read and be amazed at the powers and policies of goverment gone wild.
thank you and good night.
i don’t think i should be watching secretary at work.
i am 50 minutes into the movie and i have just witnessed the single most erotic thing i have ever come across in film. the scene is both visually and aurally stimulating. i’m going to have to watch the rest of this at home, i don’t think i can continue watching and function properly in the office.
this is definitely a must own. and shared.
going to work, i need the distraction
or a midmorning tidbit.
my boss (at the same job that i just dislike intensely now. what a difference two weeks of inspired work can make) is going away for three days on a shoot at the end of the week, she had a meeting this morning where she left myself and the head of the research unit responsible for all work leaving the office during her abscence. not that the responsibility is a problem, the head of the research unit has already handed in her resignation, so effectively if anything gets fucked up, i’ll be left holding the bag.
thus far, i’ve had nothing to do for the day, other than meet and get handover notes for laters this week. so i’ve been watching secretary, which only 30 minutes has me gripped. this movie is amazing and entirely inappropriate for me to be watching at work.
i’m supposed to have more meetings this afternoon to come up with ideas for a campaign rollout by friday, actually 3 campaigns. joy. actually i’m looking forward to the work, these people have such a ugly sense of design, it’s like pulling teeth to get them out of the rut they are in.
time to get some grub, i’ll be back later.
some early morning tidbits from metafilter to get your day started.
for the literary minded there is unpublished coda to harper lee’s to kill a mocking bird( a little strange but worth a read)
the startlingly similar right wing policies of tony blair (now we know where the rest of what’s his face’s brain went) with ‘religious groups being given a free reign on bigotry’
and a surreal news story about 12 iraqi sailors
and now your moment of zen from pointlesswasteoftime.com – 50 reasons to reject the matrix
have a great day, i’ll be back later.
