and other news in brief
Robert Byrd speaks to the senate about the situation in Iraq – “The Truth Will Emerge”
more corporate irresponsibility
something i missed from my animation extravaganza, a flash animation of a dr.who episode written by douglas adams
and finally something dear to my heart, the world’s largest literary festival
anyway the hours are ticking away and i still have a great deal of work to finish. special hello to tillah willah who feels left out because she hasn’t been blogged. and didn’t get to see the matrix before us even though she’s in london.
so i have less than 29 hours to finish this project. i like working under pressure, i think i do my best work at the last minute. it also helps keep me distracted to the fact that it’s been 8 months to the day since i saw victoria last. that’s right kiddies, almost enough time for the birth of a child. i was reading victoria’s blog yesterday and thinking about a sight i must have made on the train ride back. i had no one to hide my tears from and after 5 wonderful days, i was devastated. there is something even more heart breaking about leaving vic at an airport or watching her get on a plane. it’s like we’re stealing these tiny moments. these 8 months have been some of the most difficult and try in my life. i working on seeing vic next month and steal a few more moments but i don’t know if i have the strength to watch her get on another plane and begin the count til i see her again.
off to work
but not yet, and not before they’ve jump through a few hoops first.
so the fingerprint thing (story here) has quite a few people in trinidad getting there panties in a bunch, i would be upset too, but i’ve already been fingerprinted like a common fucking criminal twice (you put up with a hell of a lot for love) and with any luck, the should have been processed by the fbi (this was done since mid-feb (the day before st. valentine’s to be exact)
this is all part of the process i’m currently going through.
am i happy about it? oh hell fucking no.
am i putting up it for the great good? fuck yes.
the only thing that gives me comfort is that with this and all other pogroms, the pendulum will swing back. there was the mccarthy era, the pendulum swing back to camelot, then back to nixon, then to carter… you get the generally idea. the major problem in the us is the lack of balance, everything is done to excess, always. the masses accept whatever is handed to them and in this age of all pervasive media, it’s become much easier to dispense the bullshit. i firmly believe that GWB will do whatever it takes to get a second term (well first actually won) in office, the best we/you can hope for is that he doesn’t kill us all before the time is up and the masses will be able see the shit that’s stuck to them.
i should probably exercise some care with what i say, because i’m begging askance at uncle sam’s door stop and in this age of the patriot act, anything i say, can and will be held against me, but you know what – FUCK THAT!
i have a brain, i can see right from wrong. i love vic dearly, but if moving to the us to be with her means giving up higher brain functions and giving into fear of persecution, we definitely need to find somewhere else to live.
thank you and good night
ok, i just took a job that needs to be delived in less than 40 hours, this means i should not be fucking around here, but i’m easily distracted and i like working under pressure. not really i’m just not inspired at the moment.
i thought in the interim i would post some of my favourite animation links:
home of samauri lapin, mitten and snowdrop and the little goth girl – the other side
and now the news…
How to create a golem (no not a gollum, there is a difference)
keep yourself amused, i’m going to try and do some work.
ciao!
some sense of duty has brought me back to the office. i am excited, i want to talk to someone about what i have just seen, the matrix is visually exciting, it lacks some of the punch of the first installment but i really enjoyed.
vic is not online, which in itself is supremely disappointing, i want to blather on about what i did today, how much fun i had and even though i had all this fun, nothing seems quite the same without her.
i’m sitting here, listening to the nattering of the staff around me and the solid click, click, click of the keys under my fingertips as i type and all my thoughts are focussed on willing vic back to her machine, hearing the little sound that aol makes when someone new logs on. which in itself is funny, i left my computer at home today because i knew that i would have very little need for my mobile office. i got in this morning and immediately dl aim to see if i would get an opportunity to talk to vic, no luck, i’m back and she’s not here. sigh.
i have a low level headache, not sure if it’s having missed lunched or what i call the refresh rate headache.
i have a theory, actually i have a few but this one is that because i spend so much time in front of a computer screen (about 80% of my waking day) my eyes have become accoustmed to the 67Hz refresh rate of the monitor and the 30fps of movies just does something to my blink reflex (this could be complete and utter shite, but 9 times out of 10, i come out of the movies with a headache)
i have another 40 minutes of work and nothing to do, so i’m going to check the news and read my fellow bloggers. i’ll be back later with news and views.
it’s like fucking christmas, i haven’t been up this early in a long time. i so need to get a fucking life.
so i’m bright eyed and bush tailed, dispensing fashion and relationship advice early in the morning.
i seem to excel at giving advice, but i can’t follow my own for fucking hell. i call it the sisyphus complex (for those of you who don’t know he was, according to homer (go look it up, i can’t explain everything), the wisest and most prudent of mortals but was condemned by the gods to ceaselesly roll a rock to the top of a mountain whence it would roll back down and the process would begin anew)
anyway the crux of this theory is – i can see other people’s problems (or rock) clearly because i have perspective, but in my own life, i’m standing behind the rock, so i all i know it is continually an uphill battle. but sometimes more often than not you need to step away and seize up the size of the rock, cause what you believe to be a boulder might in fact be a pebble.
on this note i would like to believe i have some perspective in my life, but based on my rollercoaster emotional state i doubt that very much. again, i’m try to hold on to the joys in my life and let that be my focal point, i still haven’t heard from santo domingo, but i will in due course, sitting at home and mulling over it, is not going let the process go by any faster. i’m not getting the other cushy job (they have no budget – i believe they may have over extended themselves in an effort to keep one of their current art directors) but i have a free reign at the job i do have and i’m doing work that i can be proud of.
speaking of which one of the directors of the company came in about a week after i started working there, show me an ad that had been reproduced elsewhere and he wanted to liberate elements for an ad he wanted built for another company he run. yes, he plagerised (that’s actually being polite) and now he’s been caught and catching flak for it. and by some extension so am i, because people talk, what’s funny is that in this culture where people have no respect for the work of others, people are point and staring and laughing but a patently guilty of the same thing. i would think (and this is just me), if you too had cocoa in the sun you would want to be a little more circumspect about pointing and laughing. (how many fucking metaphors did i mix there – jesus, i need to get some more control over my thoughts)
i said last night that i had a lot of shit to talk about, well that was some of it. there is a lot more, but i really need to get to work now, i have to make sure everything i need to do is done before i leave this morning.
have a great one.
less than 12 hours to the matrix reloaded.
i’m going into the office to cut and mount up the layouts i did today and then bail out and head to the movies.
i should get to bed but before i do, i’m going to post the first picture of my new work in progress.
i have so much to say at the moment but i’m not quite sure where to begin and what i want to say.
i want to talk about how much i miss vic and deleting my friend ian’s contact info off my computer today (he died last year just before christmas), how teary gilmore girls made me and as much as i like the season finale of smallville, something seemed to be missing.
actually that seems to be the crux of my life at the moment. something is missing – victoria. she is my light and my joy, she means the world to me and being without her, is at best; difficult, at worst…
it’s where i am now. holding on daily to the joy her presence, even online brings me.
fuck, i’m getting maudlin.
good night.
i thought my MS (which ever you choose) comment had caught up with me.
i’m addicted, i will admit this freely, no vic, no journalspace, i was just beside myself.
i really should get a life. this is a short post as i’m heading out again to catch the season finale of gilmore and smallville (told you i had no life)
i’ll be back with more links and adventures later.
and i’m not the only one who thinks so…
“Nobody could do that much decoupage without the powers of darkness.”
– Anya about Martha Stewart on “Buffy the Vampire Slayer.”
there are quite a few more these are just the ones that caught my eye.
so vic just came on and told me she’d be back in an hour, so she can watch the final hour of the martha stewart movie. i don’t think it’s out of love for martha, i think it’s more in a know thine enemy kind of way.
but when you’ve just gotten up you make all sorts of weird mental assoications (actually i don’t need an excuse, i make them anyway) so i was iming a friend and was about to abbreviate martha stewart and realised that the two of the most evil empires have the same initials.
Martha Stewart / MicroSoft = MS.
coincidence? i don’t think so.
there is heinious evil afoot here.
are they one and the same? or are they legion? who else has the initial MS? is there a plot?
these and other questions enquiring minds want to know.
i am such an idle fucker. this is what happens when you have too much time on your hands.
