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out of shape

June 11, 2003 — Leave a comment

i think i may need come up with a shape to describe all the ways this day is fucked. i came in with a plan of action, time management at it’s best by 10:30 it had been fucked beyond all recognition with a sandpaper condom and a barbwire cockring without so much as an offer to buy dinner.

i’m at still at the office as i write this. i’m scrambling to get layouts done for first thing in the morning, having made sure i have all the models for a shoot tomorrow. i’m also trying to finish the artwork for a billboard for tomorrow as well. what’s the rush? i’m going to be out the office all day tomorrow on site visits and location scouting in preparation for 5 days of shooting next week. nevermind that next thursday and friday are public holidays here. darren is pulling his weight like a champion, we’re trying to work out a shooting schedule for next week, but with the deadlines being thrown at us left right and centre, there is only so much we can do.

the best bit, is i love this shit. this is what i fucking live for. i’ve been operating on cruise control for the last two months, finally something i can jump right into. i’m bitching and moaning but really and truly, this is when i’m at my best – under pressure.

as much as i love this shit i want to be out of here in an hour, can’t do that while i’m sitting here typing. i’ll post later, enjoy.

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for vic

June 11, 2003 — Leave a comment

good morning love. i miss you more already. this inability to talk during the day feels strange, but it’s for a greater good.
it rain all night and it continues, the sun didn’t come up this morning as much as the grey skies just brightened marginally, i can hear the cars swishing by outside on the wet asphalt and i can only wish you were here. the entire house overslept, on a morning like this everyone is loathe to get out of bed. i hope this brightens your morning. i’ll try to keep posting as the day progresses. i’m trying to keep the meetings to a minimum and the designing high on my time management today.

i love you completely, fiercely, wantonly, have a beautiful day my love

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Cravo E Canela

June 10, 2003 — Leave a comment

here we are couple hours later, 2Gb of new music sorted and categorised. 

i no longer want break something or someone. i didn’t call, because that would have just degenerated into something nasty and unprofessional. and thus far i have been able to keep it professional. 

i think i just need two major projects to get me out of this hole and have enough squirrel away for vic’s visit. 

it’s started raining here and all i can think about is crawling into bed with vic by my side. 

i really hope it rains (pours actually) while she’s here. 

i had a bunch of links that i was going to post but vic just told me about what she wore to work today and the thought of her in a skirt just pushes all coherent thought out of my mind. completely. 

have a good one 

(edited twice after some good natured ribbing) 

going to bed and let the rain on my roof lull me to sleep.

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HOW THE FUCK IS THAT MY PROBLEM?

June 10, 2003 — Leave a comment

it’s midevening i’m sitting around the house by myself in darkness, well not complete darkness, the light from the monitors is enough, i can touch type… i’m looking for some kind of outlet to lash out.

the main phone line has been disconnected (well i can receive calls, but i can’t make any) because i didn’t pay the bill, well that’s obvious, what did i expect. well i expected, that i did a job and would have been fucking paid. this is the fucking annual report project. what is pissing me off even more, is the attitude of the fucking woman. “well i haven’t been paid, i don’t have any money.”

HOW THE FUCK IS THAT MY PROBLEM?

i spent 4 days and as many nights, quite a few of them on very little sleep to finish the job, she didn’t check the job on the press and it printed like shit and now i have to be suffering? and the only reason i haven’t tore into her ass as i rightly deserve to, is because she’s a friend of mine’s wife.

I HATE FUCKING KETCHING MY ASS.

i am talented, skilled, i should not have to be scrambling to make ends meet in this fucking godforsaken excuse of a country. all kinds of idiots and morons with not a lick of talent are out there making money hand over fist. can i? NO! i’m difficult to work with! why? because i don’t put up with shit.

i think i’m really angry at myself, because i broke the fucking rule. half upfront. don’t deliver finished artwork with out a cheque in hand. so here i am 2 weeks later, still not paid. and what pisses me off even more this is the norm here. unprofessional fucks.

my eye is twiching, that’s never a good sign. i haven’t been this angry in a long, long time, i’m grateful that i’m home on my own. actually you know what, i’m going to call and demand my money now, let’s see how that goes…

i’ll be back later.

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settling in

June 10, 2003 — Leave a comment

today has been one of those days, all manner of hysterical running around, putting out small fires, starting a few under peoples ass. what’s truly funny is that through all of this i haven’t actually done any design work. i have a logo and some ads to design for an upcoming campaign and i am uninspired. nothing is going to happen in the next 40 minutes. i’m sure.

less than  a day into it, i’m questioning if i want this job. it’s a matter of time management, actually it’s a matter of management, the question is how good a manager am i? do i want to be a manager?

my mood seems to be slipping and the edge of the pit seems closer than usual, i hate this place (no, not the country or my job, that’s settled in to gentle loathing) this place, this uncertainty, the loneliness, the depression. this is not me, i am control of my life…

fuck, i’m heading to the melodrama. i’m going home, hopefully, i’ll find my focus by the time i get home.

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dress for success

June 10, 2003 — Leave a comment

one of the things my boss asked of me, with my new responsibilities is to change my mode of dress. no more slippers, no more paint smattered sneakers, shirts, thankfully no ties, i’d have to draw the line somewhere.
i can compromise on the slippers thing, it’s the rainy season, so i would have had to give them up anyway. but my most comfortable pair of sneakers is a pair i bought for j’ouvert (they were once white, but now two j’ouverts later… well lets just say both j’ouvert there was paint involved – red, black, i think i see some brown) but i like those sneakers, i think they add character. but this is trinidad, the concept of a 6′ 2″ tattoo, pierced, dreadlock’d creative director is still a little heavy to spring on most middle managers, so the concept is if we can tame it down in the wardrobe department, they might be a little more receptive. i doubt.
the problem with shirts is that they require ironing, i hate to iron. but on the other hand i did take that into account when i went shopping for shirts, so most of my shirts i can get by with a brisk shaking out and on it goes.
i’m not generally a slob, i just prefer to dress in clothes i’m comfortable (if i could go everywhere in shorts and barefeet, it would be perfect). i’m not one of those people who believes that you don’t have to look the part, i’m firmly of the belief that your skills should count, what you look like should not.
which begs the question, what the hell am i doing in advertising… ? i guess it was the only industry that pretty much paid me to look how ever i wanted. as long as you’re an “artist” (yeah, you can always hear the quotes when the say it) you can get away with it.
anyway enough rambling for the morning, i should at least try to get work early on my first official morning as CD. let’s see how long this last.

peace

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42

June 9, 2003 — Leave a comment

i’m sitting here surrounded by machines. 2 TiPBs (Titanium Powerbooks for the uninitiated) and a spanking new ibook. sadly only one Ti PB is mine, the other i’m setting up for os x as well as the ibook. by virture of the longest use, i have become the de facto master of X. for want of better thrills, i’m sitting here surrounded by 4 monitors, two attached to my machine. i’ve found it easier to work this way one of palettes and extraneous windows and one for the actual work. 
i should stop stroking my inner geek. although there is not much for me to do as the apps install and update. 

i did find a couple of interesting links this evening: 

the winners of the world stupidity awards 

full lenght versions of all those samples from your favourite hip hop tracks 

the simplified spelling society 

and finally the encyclopedia of unusual sexual practices 

“WHAT DO YOU GET IF YOU MULTIPLY SIX BY NINE”

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your eyes are full of code Tiroteo…

June 9, 2003 — Leave a comment

that’s good. code keeps the site up to date. (apologies to all the ben hur fans)

thank you for the swift and effective update to the site, solving all my link problems.

i’m in a fairly good mood, late lunch and all. i’m in the process of carving my domain. not as bad as it sounds, just setting up the machines how i want them, organising the fonts, i’m thinking now is the time to make the switch to os x in the office as well. but that’s going to have to be done over the weekend.

i’m realising there will be fewer opportunities for mid day post and movie watching, everyone is pretty much accountable to me and all the goddamn meetings i could do without. how am i supposed to create?

nevermind, rhethorical question…

here is your afternoon moment of zen

need to get back to work, i just had to thank tiroteo for his amazing work on the site.

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i have the power

June 9, 2003 — Leave a comment

i have now officially been appointed creative director, no pay raise, no perks, just the title. still feels good and my tattoo guy signed on. i’ve been looking forward to working with him for a while. let’s see how this goes. in the meantime here is a joke that a friend sent me:

The angel Gabriel came to the Lord and said, “I have to talk to you. I have some West Indians up here in Heaven who are causing some problems. They are swinging on the Pearly Gates, my horn is missing, jerk sauce and curry are all over their robes; hamhocks, cowheel, chicken feet and pigtail bones are all over the streets of Gold; some folk are walking around with one wing, they have been late taking their turn in keeping the stairway to heaven clean, there are watermelon seeds all over the clouds, some aren’t even wearing their halos, saying it doesn’t fit with their hairstyles.” The Lord said, “I made them special, as I did you, my angel. Heaven is home to all my children. If you really want to know about problems, let’s call the Devil.” The Devil answered the phone, “Hello? What the….!, hold on one minute.” The Devil returned to the phone and said, “Hello Lord, what can I do for you?” The Lord replied, “Tell me what kind of problems you are having down there.” The Devil said, “Wait one minute,” and put the Lord on hold. After 5 minutes he returned to the phone, and said “Okay, I’m back. What was the question?” The Lord said, “What kind of problems are you having down there?” Devil said, “Man, I don’t beli…..hold on, Lord”. This time the Devil was gone for 15 minutes. The Devil returned and said, “I’m sorry Lord, I can’t talk right now. These West Indians put the fire out, and now they are trying to install air conditioning!” 

i’ll be back with more updates as the day progresses. with great power, comes great responsibility.

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your moment of zen – monday morning style

June 9, 2003 — Leave a comment

it’s monday morning, astoundingly i’m relaxed and ready to face the day, for those you that aren’t here are a couple of eye openers. 

the biniki (or butt bra) 

50 years of Fiat Advertising 

another martha joke (it’s not mean, and i’ll tire of these links soon, so enjoy it while it lasts) 

john gilmore vs the federal government & the airline industry (a very interesting read) 

and finally for all my super geek friends – the magic cube 4d 

have a good day, i’ll be back.

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