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May 17, 2004 — Leave a comment

how appropriate, that the morality police should strike in May, it is national masturbation month, obviously this witch hunt is one person`s onanistic endeavour. please don`t sit back and think it`s not your problem. keep this in mind:

In Germany they first came for the Communists,

and I didn`t speak up because I wasn`t a Communist.

Then they came for the Jews,

and I didn`t speak up because I wasn`t a Jew.

Then they came for the trade unionists,

and I didn`t speak up because I wasn`t a trade unionist.

Then they came for the Catholics,

and I didn`t speak up because I was a Protestant.

Then they came for me —

and by that time no one was left to speak up.


Pastor Martin Niemöller

speak up, make your voice be heard. you may not have nudes in your gallery or erotica in your journal, but the first step is always the doozy. if that`s how it begins, how soon do you think before the language we use or the thoughts we express may be suppressed for not fitting someone`s ideal of morality.

EDIT

a couple people have asked who do we speak to, well i would suggest JS-development, but i`m sure they have their hands full dealing with other stuff. so i`m suggesting you post in your journal a sex positive link and/or a nude photo/illustration/sculpture of a human form, particularly if you are a parent. neither nudity or sexuality are bad things and people need to realise that. the only way to counter this kind of ignorance is through education.

last night the good wyf and i sat and sorted out combined cd collections and put them in alphabetical order and as with the books we have more cds than shelving. this after a major culling after i arrived and another culling last night. we have a lot of music, a diverse selection that covers classical, hard rock, new wave, massive amounts of techno, compilations and soundtracks whose variety are quite impressive.

we also combined our mp3 libraries. i culled albums that i still own in their original format to make room on the 25Gb drive for the tunes that were rescued from the dying iMac. It`s interesting to see what compromises our 4800 tracks, some of it would not have graced my collection voluntarily and i`m sure there is some stuff in there that would make vic`s ears bleed if she were forced to listen to it as well but it`s nice to see the stuff there, like the books, it`s one of those signs that we`re one household, finally.

i`m doing the final clean up, with a collection this large it`s easy to miss overlaps, especially when we share musical tastes. when we stopped last night it was close to midnight and when you`re tired it`s easy to miss stuff.

i like living in the south, if only for the sole reason that good manners are valued here, people hold doors open, respond to `please` and `thank you` and `good day`. with the exception of one set of our neighbours who are either too completely self involved; we`ve told them hullo on more than one occasion and been assiduously ignored; or just rude. which just send me off the deep end. the rudeness extends to having their friends and visitors park in our space. normally i`m not territorial but i have to draw the line somewhere.

i try to be polite and generally good mannered and i`ve found it works very well. since i`ve been here i`m been mistaken for British and a private school teacher, just because of my manners alone.

again i`ve gotten side-tracked and forgot where i was going with it and it`s time to pick the wife up from work

i like driving. i particularly like driving manual cars. not that i don`t love the joys of cruise control and not having to balance the clutch sometimes, but i`d rather give those up that a manual gear shift.

i think my love for driving came from my mother. she had an original 1000 mini, manual shift and drove it like a racing driver. down shifting, drafting busses, all the tricks i know now, i learned sitting next to my mother in the mini.

one of the things we used to do and i still do now is adventure driving. the concept worked well in trinidad, because it`s only so big and the principle was the road had to come out somewhere. on a larger scale it helps me find alternate routes and couple with an unfailing sense of direction i`ve found it very useful when i move somewhere new.

how it`s done, basically, is you pick a street and follow your instinct that it will take you where it needs too. it`s sort of like dirk gently`s theory about following a car as stated here.

“… A  few turnings later and I was thoroughly lost. There is a school of thought which says that you should consult a map on these occasions,  but  to  such people I merely say, `Ha! What if you have no map to consult? What if you have a map but it`s of the Dordogne?`  My own strategy is to find a car, or the nearest equivalent, which looks as if it knows where it`s going and follow it.  I rarely  end up where I was intending to go, but often I end up somewhere that I needed to be. So  what  do  you say to that?”

from douglas adams` long dark tea time of the soul

well, it works for me. but i`m the person my closest friends have intimated that has sold my soul for parking spaces and a sense of direction. i get parking spaces close to, if not directly in front of where i want to be and i don`t get lost. so adventure driving or picking a road and following it to see where it will take you in proximity to where you wanted to be in the first place works for me.

damn i`ve lost my initial train of thought.

some time later

i remember, i remember.

a loaf of bread, a container of milk and a stick of butter. i remember.

well that too, but i remembered my train of thought and original point of my post.

i`ve never been a huge fan of american iron. i like sports cars, i would be thrilled to drive them at least once but i don`t actually want to own one, particularly an american made sports car. that`s right, no corvettes, no camaros, no mustangs. and there is good reason, the transmission. most american cars come with automatic transmission and even if it comes with manual transmission the gear ratio, stinks.

i was completely appalled to park next to an audi tt and peep in the window to see an automatic transmission. that`s just wrong. i think there should be a law, you want to drive a sports car, you should know how to handle a clutch.

i am a big guy, the two seater sports coupe doesn`t do anything for me, primarily cause i can`t fit in them. when i was younger, thinner, much more flexible and thinking about buying my first car, i tried out a madza miata and i thought i was going to hurt myself clambering in and out of that thing. my mid-life crisis cars would either be the subura impreza wrx — rally tuned suspension and six speed gear box or a bmw m5.

give me a sedan or wagon, with a good transmission and some good broad, low profile tires i`m heaven. i like the neon it`s small but it responds well, it has nice pickup; if the ac isn`t running and it doesn`t suck gas. if i had to change one thing on it, it would the tires, the narrow, 13″ tires just irk me, those should be outlawed too.

time to get on the road again.

out of sight, out of mind, seems par for the course with me and the people i call friends. well not all of them, i`m realising i can count the true friends on the fingers of one hand.

for all the rest it`s about what i can do for them, whether it`s fixing their computers or helping them with a problem or just sitting there listening to them. i don`t mind any of this, it`s what friendship is about, right?

but when do it become to much?

there are people that will see me online and not say a word to me for weeks, but the nanosecond they have a problem, the message window pops open and in some cases without even a howdy, they launch into whatever problem ails them. aside from it being rude, i feel so used.

is it wrong for me to complain about my so called friends?

i`ve called them on it, but no one seems to take me seriously. i mean, there are people who will send four million forwards, but will never take the time to send me an email saying, `hi, how are you?` or reply to an email i sent.

i keep swearing up and down that this is the last year, i`m cutting people lose, but i never do. i`m always there when they need help or a shoulder to cry on. the big sap that i am. this is why people take advantage of me.

at least i`ve learned to say no.

our house

April 18, 2004 — Leave a comment

in the middle of the street, well actually, in the left hand corner of a cul-de-sac.

one of the series, viewable here.

it`s been a long and fun weekend and i`m too beat to edit the movie at the moment.

we`re having our first official house guests this weekend. actually they arrive tonight. and house warming tomorrow, i`m excited, we`re excited. our apartment finally looks like we live here, the boxes are out of the living room, granted there are now a batch shoved into our closet and under a table in our room with the rest destined for the attic. we have pictures up on the wall, books on shelves, granted more books than available shelving, but it looks neat enough.

i hoping some one shows up with a digital camera this weekend and i`ll finally be able to post pictures of the place.

hope you all have a great weekend although, i`m sure, i`ll get sucked in by the addiction that is js at some point.

deliverance

April 12, 2004 — Leave a comment

i`d been humming duelling banjos since friday when we left to go see vic`s mom. i`d been joking with vic that i might not make it back from meeting her family, but it was all said in jest. so it`s all out there now, it took a while but it`s done.

i had a great weekend, it was fun and comfortable and i was fed and fed and fed. i thought i was going to have to roll home. and speaking of which i`m back down from the 300+ mark, 288 and slipping. no fancy diet, unless you call not eating out a diet. we`ve been cooking and eating at home.

well i`m minding the boychick and friend so i should go see what they`re up to.

anon.

it`s one year to the day since i started posting here and what a long and colourful ride it`s been. i was editing some of the categories recently so i got to re-read some of my earlier entries. there`s a lot of dreck in here but there are quite a few bright spots as well

since i`ve been here, i`ve made a few friends, been inspired to improve my writing, seen a number of good writers come, go and return. i`ve shared my life, mostly uncensored, the highs and the lows and it`s been good. i enjoy what i read here, i appreciate the opinions, the comments and i`m looking forward to another year here.

i`ve got a lot of stories to tell and opinions to offer, i`m not going anywhere in a hurry.

again

April 6, 2004 — Leave a comment

i had one of those inspirational writing moments, got started and lost it, so you`re stuck with more tales of the unpacking.

there is a space in the living room. there are less than 15 boxes left and i think most of them are going straight into the attic. it feels odd saying that, i`ve never lived somewhere with an attic so it`s a bit of an adjustment.

the books are mostly on the shelves, the shelf with the cookbooks has been organised and there are still some on the floor probably enough to take up another shelf on another bookcase. looking at the books i`m wondering how it`s all going to fit.

slowly but surely the ground floor is beginning to take shape.