what price friendship?

out of sight, out of mind, seems par for the course with me and the people i call friends. well not all of them, i`m realising i can count the true friends on the fingers of one hand.

for all the rest it`s about what i can do for them, whether it`s fixing their computers or helping them with a problem or just sitting there listening to them. i don`t mind any of this, it`s what friendship is about, right?

but when do it become to much?

there are people that will see me online and not say a word to me for weeks, but the nanosecond they have a problem, the message window pops open and in some cases without even a howdy, they launch into whatever problem ails them. aside from it being rude, i feel so used.

is it wrong for me to complain about my so called friends?

i`ve called them on it, but no one seems to take me seriously. i mean, there are people who will send four million forwards, but will never take the time to send me an email saying, `hi, how are you?` or reply to an email i sent.

i keep swearing up and down that this is the last year, i`m cutting people lose, but i never do. i`m always there when they need help or a shoulder to cry on. the big sap that i am. this is why people take advantage of me.

at least i`ve learned to say no.