white noise and sparkles

On February 20, 2004, in entertainment, by keifel

i can`t function in silence. at work i have my collection of music, these days i`m sharing ie my headphones remain in my desk drawer and the rest of the department gets to share in some of my eclectic tastes.

at home, well what was my home until last saturday, i had the laptop connect to the speakers and as soon as i got in i`d pick something to listen to while i unwound, didn`t really matter, it was part of my collection so i must enjoy listening to it.

honestly, i hate the tinny sound of the speakers on the laptop and since the speakers are already packed away i automatically switch on the television. it`s not about what`s on it`s background noise. that doesn`t mean there are things on tv that wont catch my attention while i`m sitting at the computer, but they tend to be commercials, if only for the execution and style. this is my field.

there are things i like to watch and channels that the television stays on, like comedy central. i`ll be the first to admit that there is a lot of shit on comedy central but they still have some of the most innovative and entertaining programming on tv; south park, insomniac, chapelle show, the daily show. plus the reruns of snl and sports night far outweigh the man show.

at the old apartment the television only came on for me to watch my regulars, kids wb on a saturday, alias on a sunday, gilmore girls on a tuesday, smallville, angel, south park and chapelle show on a wednesday and er on a thursday when i remember.

these days the television is on all the time, a virtual sea of white noise. and in the sea of white noise that is television these are the sparkles and on wednesday night the light was almost blinding. i am speaking about angel, it sad to see the series get cancelled, i was just really getting into it; trying to catch the back episodes on tnt when i could.

wednesday night`s show featured angel as a puppet. i have not laughed so much in a long time. i`ve said this before, i enjoy well written television  and from concept to execution, angel was tv at it`s best. i think there is a rerun on tnt on tuesday night at 11pm. check it out.

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must have my fix

On February 19, 2004, in personal, by keifel

my god, is this what withdrawal is like?

a whole day without posting, i should get accustomed.

i had all this thoughts for posts and of course being the sensible and somewhat busy do bee today, i didn`t displace any electrons and save them anywhere.

they`ve been keeping me on my toes at the office, i have an annual report to design, the first round of designs went off to the client this afternoon and the rest of the art department is finally migrating to os x and as the person with the most experience in the building, i`m answering questions and tweaking machines so they work. i`m glad to have something to do.

i`m so excited, it`s a wonder i don`t explode. a lot people in the office have commented in my radical change in demeanour. i can barely contain my happiness. in related news my books are safely on their way via dhl, which oddly was cheaper than sending by the jamaica postal service, which i was told not to trust.

my connection time is going to be limited to the office now. in a snafu of epic proportions disconnecting my phone and the associated dsl account has eliminated my dialup access, i would kick up a stink, but i`m only going to be here for another week, don`t really see the point. i could dial up using aohell, but the US$6 a minute surcharge is down right vicious, so i`m just going to continue to bring my laptop to work and email back and forth with vic all day.

 

observations

On February 18, 2004, in opinions, by keifel

i made a slight detour this morning before i came into work. i went downtown to do something for my mother.

now when i was moving to jamaica i heard all these stories about how dangerous it is, yadda, yadda, yadda. you know what, it`s no more dangerous than any other urban centre.

most jamaicans consider trinidad infinitely more dangerous. i guess it`s all a matter of perception. having seen it from both sides, i have this to say; the same way i wont go to certain places in trinidad after dark, the same principle applies here, actually anywhere i go.

trinidad and jamaica share many of the same social and economic problems to some extent, although jamaica with the recent appearance of a middle class is somewhat different model.

the majority of the problems stem from the same basic failing of the education system.

i believe that my generation is the last to wholeheartedly swallow that carrot. you know the one, study hard, get good grades and you`ll get a good job. now we have a whole generation of young people who have seen this system fail their older siblings and seen some of their peers get rich quick selling drugs or jobs just by their affiliations.

in trinidad we have a whole new class, an underclass, they are about the quick buck and because they have no value on their own, they value even less their victims. this is compounded by the drug and gang related deportees who have been living abroad most of their lives and accustomed to a certain lifestyle and do whatever they deem necessary to maintain it.

this is a caribbean problem and because of the nature of politics in the caribbean, it`s not likely to change.

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by the time i finish typing this, it will be exactly two weeks until i land in dc on my way to nashville.

as productive as i was yesterday, today, i`m just twiddling my thumbs, i can`t focus on work, i don`t even want to be in the office.

i want to be with vic, kissing her.

i want the simplest of things, really i just want to be able to fall asleep next to vic every night and get up next to her in the morning. everything else will work itself out.

and now we have a date, a time, a moment that we can begin with the simple things. mornings and evening, birthdays, holidays. doing something, sitting around doing nothing. we`ll be able to choose. there is no packing up and going `back` to anywhere, for either of us.

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twofer

On February 17, 2004, in memes, by keifel

Suppose you`re having what you consider an intellectual conversation with an individual that you met online and the two of you decided to exchange pics. You send the person a nicely groomed photo of yourself,but in return, they send you a nude photo of themself. What thought(s) would cross your mind? Would you continue the conversation?

why do intellectualism and sexuality have to be on divergent ends of the spectrum?

i think one leads to another, at least for me. they`re not mutually exclusive. i wouldn`t do it personally, i have body issues. there are a couple reason i would think that someone would do something like that, but it would be a generalisation and a judgement.

What is the ultimate sacrifice you`ll make for love and why? (this could be the love of a child, spouse, parent, etc.) Do you feel like you`ve already made the ultimate sacrifice what were the results

as a parent i don`t think any sacrifice is too great too make for your children. no ifs, ands or buts.

as for interpersonal relationships, well, i think, hmmm… read a few entries…

 

i’m far too chipper for a monday

On February 16, 2004, in personal, words, by keifel

i just came back from picking up my ticket. it`s hard to believe it`s only going to be another two weeks.

all tickets are in hand, i still haven`t finished packing and i haven`t organised the boxes, but i think that`s on the agenda for this afternoon.

i`m literally bouncing off the walls here. i`ve got a design to do for an annual report and i have a surfeit of ideas, i`m just completely hyper.

i`m also checking all the stuff in my drawers that to go this week to be packed, first and foremost, my dictionary.

i have no doubt that particular confession will raise more than a few eyebrows. why the hell would i bring a dictionary to work and much less, need to pack it to ship. well the simple fact is that i believe that it`s one of the essentials in my household.

besides this is no ordinary dictionary, this is the new oxford dictionary of english, 2001 edition. i bought this in london, on my trip in 2002 and it`s been travelling with me ever since. i place a great deal of value on a good dictionary, if i had the money, i would pay the $295 annual subscription for the OED online. words are a passion.

before this dictionary, i had been using a chambers 20th century edition that i`d won in a scrabble tournament, that had served me well. i believe it`s in storage with the rest of books that vic trekked to the wilds of naples, fl to recover.

that`s another thing i`m looking forward to, combining our libraries, vic and i share a love for books and words and both have large collections of books. i`m sure we`re going to have to constrain ourselves to a book budget every month when we finally get settled.

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i moved out of my apartment yesterday. my lease was up. i`m crashing with a friend for the next two weeks.

i have to unpack today, but it`s really just an exercise in deciding what needs to be packed away properly and what i`m wearing for the next two weeks.

i have boxes to ship, but they have to be a certain weight and size and wrapped in brown paper, so i have to get smaller boxes to repack.

there is an air of surrealism about all of this. it`s what we`ve been waiting on for two years, i`m just still in awe that it`s all happening. in two weeks and a day, vic and i will be together.

i`m not sure if this is going to be the longest two weeks or the swiftest two weeks in creation. everytime i think about it, my skin tingles, my heart races and i seem to be at a loss for words.

i`m going to organise my bags, it`s strange how much stuff you manage to accumulate, i can pack the big bag today and get it out of the way, so the smaller bag will be laundry i use in the next two weeks.

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i read, therefore i am

On February 14, 2004, in memes, by keifel

stole this from sungoddess

1984, George Orwell

The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho

Alice`s Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll

Animal Farm, George Orwell

Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy

Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery


Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer

The BFG, Roald Dahl

Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks

Black Beauty, Anna Sewell

Bleak House, Charles Dickens

Brave New World, Aldous Huxley


Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh

Bridget Jones`s Diary, Helen Fielding

Captain Corelli`s Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres

Catch 22, Joseph Heller

The Catcher In The Rye, JD Salinger

Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl

A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens

The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel


Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons

The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett

The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas

Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoevsky

David Copperfield, Charles Dickens


Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson

Dune, Frank Herbert

Emma, Jane Austen

Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy

Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson

The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy

The Godfather, Mario Puzo

Gone With The Wind, Margaret Mitchell

Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman

Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian

Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake

The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck

Great Expectations, Charles Dickens

The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald

Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett

Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling

Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire, JK Rowling

Harry Potter And The Philosopher`s Stone, JK Rowling

Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling

His Dark Materials trilogy, Philip Pullman

The Hitchhiker`s Guide To The Galaxy, Douglas Adams

The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien


Holes, Louis Sachar

I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith

Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte

Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer

Katherine, Anya Seton

The Lion, The Witch And The Wardrobe, CS Lewis

Little Women, Louisa May Alcott

Lord Of The Flies, William Golding

The Lord Of The Rings, JRR Tolkien

Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel Garcia Marquez

The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blighton


Magician, Raymond E Feist

The Magus, John Fowles

Matilda, Roald Dahl

Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden


Middlemarch, George Eliot

Midnight`s Children, Salman Rushdie

Mort, Terry Pratchett

Night Watch, Terry Pratchet
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Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman

Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck

On The Road, Jack Kerouac

One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Perfume, Patrick Suskind

Persuasion, Jane Austen

The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett

A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving

Pride And Prejudice, Jane Austen


The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot

The Ragged Trousered Philantrhopists, Robert Tressell

Rebecca, Daphne Du Maurier

The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett

The Secret History, Donna Tartt

The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher

The Stand, Stephen King

The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth

Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome

A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens

Tess Of The D`urbervilles, Thomas Hardy

The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough

To Kill A Mockingbird, Harper Lee


A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute

Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson

The Twits, Roald Dahl

Ulysses, James Joyce


Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson

War And Peace, Leo Tolstoy

Watership Down, Richard Adams

The Wind In The Willows, Kenneth Grahame

Winnie-the-Pooh, AA Milne


The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins

Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte

bold equals read, i can`t tag the ones i own because i`m not sure of the total contents of our library, yet

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juno, lupercalia, beheadings and commercialism

On February 14, 2004, in opinions, by keifel

Valentine`s Day started in the time of the Roman Empire. In ancient Rome, February 14th was a holiday to honor Juno. Juno was the Queen of the Roman Gods and Goddesses. The Romans also knew her as the Goddess of women and marriage. The following day, February 15th, began the Feast of Lupercalia.

The lives of young boys and girls were strictly separate. However, one of the customs of the young people was name drawing. On the eve of the festival of Lupercalia the names of Roman girls were written on slips of paper and placed into jars. Each young man would draw a girl`s name from the jar and would then be partners for the duration of the festival with the girl whom he chose. Sometimes the pairing of the children lasted an entire year, and often, they would fall in love and would later marry.

Under the rule of Emperor Claudius II Rome was involved in many bloody and unpopular campaigns. Claudius the Cruel was having a difficult time getting soldiers to join his military leagues. He believed that the reason was that roman men did not want to leave their loves or families. As a result, Claudius cancelled all marriages and engagements in Rome. The good Saint Valentine was a priest at Rome in the days of Claudius II. He and Saint Marius aided the Christian martyrs and secretly married couples, and for this kind deed Saint Valentine was apprehended and dragged before the Prefect of Rome, who condemned him to be beaten to death with clubs and to have his head cut off. He suffered martyrdom on the 14th day of February, about the year 270. At that time it was the custom in Rome, a very ancient custom, indeed, to celebrate in the month of February the Lupercalia, feasts in honor of a heathen god. On these occasions, amidst a variety of pagan ceremonies, the names of young women were placed in a box, from which they were drawn by the men as chance directed.

The pastors of the early Christian Church in Rome endeavored to do away with the pagan element in these feasts by substituting the names of saints for those of maidens. And as the Lupercalia began about the middle of February, the pastors appear to have chosen Saint Valentine`s Day for the celebration of this new feast. So it seems that the custom of young men choosing maidens for valentines, or saints as patrons for the coming year, arose in this way.

People in England probably celebrated Valentine`s Day as early as the 1400`s. Some historians trace the custom of sending verses on Valentine`s Day to a Frenchman named Charles, Duke of Orleans. Charles was captured by the English during the Battle of Agincourt in 1415. He was taken to England and put in prison. On Valentine`s Day, he sent his wife a rhymed love letter from his cell in the Tower of London.

One of the oldest customs was the practice of writing women`s names on slips of paper and drawing them from a jar. The woman whose name was drawn by a man became his valentine, and he paid special attention to her. Many men gave gifts to their valentines. In some areas, a young man gave his valentine a pair of gloves. Wealthy men gave fancy balls to honor their valentines.

One description of Valentine`s Day during the 1700`s tells how groups of friends met to draw names. For several days, each man wore his valentine`s name on his sleeve. The saying wearing his heart on his sleeve probably came from this practice.

The custom of sending romantic messages gradually replaced that of giving gifts. In the 1700`s and 1800`s, many stores sold handbooks called valentine writers. These books included verses to copy and various suggestions about writing valentines.

Commercial valentines were first made in the early 1800`s. Many of them were blank inside, with space for the sender to write a message. The British artist Kate Greenaway became famous for her valentines in the late 1800`s. Many of her cards featured charming pictures of happy children and lovely gardens.

Esther A. Howland, of Worcester, Massachusetts, became one of the first U.S. manufacturers of valentines. In 1847, after seeing a British valentine, she decided to make some of her own. She made samples and took orders from stores. Then she hired a staff of young women and set up an assembly line to produce the cards. One woman glued on paper flowers, another added lace, and another painted leaves. Howland soon expanded her business into a $100,000-a-year enterprise.

Many valentines of the 1800`s were hand painted. Some featured a fat cupid or showed arrows piercing a heart. Many cards had satin, ribbon, or lace trim. Others were decorated with dried flowers, feathers, imitation jewels, mother-of-pearl, sea shells, or tassels. Some cards cost as much as $10.

From the mid-1800`s to the early 1900`s, many people sent comic valentines called penny dreadfuls. These cards sold for a penny and featured such insulting verses as:

  `Tis all in vain your simpering looks,

  You never can incline,

  With all your bustles, stays, and curls,

  To find a valentine.

Many penny dreadfuls and other old valentines have become collectors` items.

When the [Civil] war ended, and Americans crept into the light of Reconstruction, they found a freshly industrialized nation. Along with it came a transcontinental railroad, typewriters, an internal combustion engine, and — most importantly for Valentine’s Day — heart-shaped boxes full of  commercial chocolates (a gimmick invented by the Cadbury brothers during the  1860s). Although fine diamonds and jewelry never quite became the norm among Americans, the standard “recipe” of cards, flowers, and a heart-shaped  box of chocolates had been carved in the national psyche. Now Valentine’s  Day is only second to Christmas in number of cards bought and sent.

[multiple sources]

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