i forgot…

On July 1, 2003, in links, by keifel

my pride link for the day and while you’re there don’t be afraid to take the 2003 nerve sex survey (unlike most of the quizzes, there is no result at the end)

adieu.

 

these little naps

On July 1, 2003, in links, by keifel

are quite refreshing. i think i may take one on everyday now. i’m slogging through hp on the palm, i think it’s just bad mind now, i refuse to wait til after vic leaves to read a copy.
since i’ve been up, i’ve been surfing, it is tuesday so the village voice is all new (c’mon, the link is my favourites, go click on it) and metafilter is still down, so i have to find the news by hand, or by blog.

thank you laura for this great link – zadie on katherine (how cool is that)

there are also a whole bunch of cool links on the group blog – the junk drawer (yes, it’s a plug, i contribute, so sue me…
oh wait,  you can’t sue me [thanks jadedgrrl])

and my wife has arrived online, so i bid you all a good night.

 

it’s the little things

On July 1, 2003, in personal, by keifel

that make life enjoyable. the nicest part of my day today, wasn’t getting the cheque for the job after weeks of waiting, it was being able to help the lady that fell down while walking next to me. i had a lovely lunch with good friends, all in all the ripples from friday are still continuing to spread.
right now vic and i are working out a budget for the trip. hotel rates have gone up and at the moment the cheapest rate that i can find is TT$302 a night. if anyone here (in trinidad) has an apt or house they want to rent for 10 days pm and let me know.

i’m going to make some calls, i’ll be back later.

 

rabbit, rabbit

On July 1, 2003, in love, lust, longing, by keifel

there is no logical reason for me to be up at this hour. and it’s true, the reason i’m at this hour is purely hormonal. i had the most spectacular, most realistic dream, i’m not sure, but i may have moaned out loud. i sitting here typing every nerve ending tingling, my skin longing to be touched, disappointed to present myself and vic wasn’t there. that’s what woke me, the sensation of being alone in bed.

there are 17 days til vic gets here and the dreams seem to be getting more and more intense. it’s going to be interesting to see what result is going to be, i instituted a personal no touching policy today. i’m curious to see if that is at all possible and i need to whip out all the clothes that keep me hidden. although with this latest weight gain, i’m not sure i’ll have anything left to fit me. i happen on a scale yesterday and realised i’d exceeded my comfort zone in terms of weight, i need to find a healthy, comfortable way to drop back within the range. i have to say this last weight gain has snuck up on me and i’m not happy about it, actually scared shitless would be more accurate. i used to be the short fat child growing up, now pretty soon my height is not going to be able to hide the fact that i’ve turned into el tubbo.

i should get off my lazy ass and do something, but i’d join the gym, go for a week and then never go back. random walking is unappealing to me. not really big on team sports and the one i’m willing to play, can’t find a team to join.

going to have a shower and head off to work.

 

two quickies

On June 30, 2003, in memes, by keifel

got this from n:

expert

You Are an EXPERT in Bed

You know precisely what you’re doing when the sheets are pulled down and the panties go right along with them.
You’re also super confident, and rightly so.
Because any man who may be fortunate enough to find himself between your legs is a happy man, indeed.
You’re the type of woman men brag about in locker rooms: knowledgeable, adorable, and lickable.
You’ve gotten to the point that you don’t even have to try so hard.
It all just comes naturally: the mouth, the hips, everything underneath.
One lovely little package.

Are *You* Good In Bed?
More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

green

Your Sexual Energy is Green!

Your sexual energy is rich, serene, and abundant like the natural world.
You are always feeling your sexual aura flow through you, like a stream.
Rarely do you go anywhere without it.
You seduce people with your luxurious glow.
You do not have to be obvious to express your sexuality.
Others just feel your serene sexual power that resides within.
First dates are a mental dance for you – as you subtly seduce potential lovers.
In bed, you can easily sense your lovers needs and to flow them as needed.
This spiritual click is your primary sexual strength.
However, sometimes you allow your carnal appetite to go too far, and you forget to be cautious.
While it’s awesome and totally liberating to release your inner wild woman… watch out!
Sometimes your pheromones may mislead you.
Check out Natalie Portman and Julia Stiles for some green sexual energy guidance.
When it comes to the hot matches, people who have shades of red, yellow, and pink are strong possibilities.
What Color is Your Sexual Energy?
More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

 

when it rains…

On June 30, 2003, in links, memes, personal, by keifel

…it pours.

today was kind of stressful, aside from the moron client. the power adaptor on my laptop, finally gave out, had to find a replacement at least until the new one arrives. then i couldn’t get my regular connection to dialup. i’m using a borrowed connection to get some info for a quotation that was due on friday, but all i want to do right now is go to bed. vic has a headache and i’m not sure who’s feeding back from whom.

i’m want to call it a night, but i have to wait on a call back from the server people, my client is  on my ass, rightfully so as to why her server or at least the mail portion isn’t up yet.

i’ll regal you with some links in the mean time:

Are you hypocritical about God? (a very interesting quiz – vic sent me this a while ago)
my results:
You have been awarded the TPM medal of distinction! This is our second highest award for outstanding service on the intellectual battleground.
The fact that you progressed through this activity being hit only once and biting very few bullets suggests that your beliefs about God are well thought out and almost entirely internally consistent.
The direct hit you suffered occurred because one set of your answers implied a logical contradiction. The bitten bullets occurred because you responded in ways that required that you held views that most people would have found strange, incredible or unpalatable. At the bottom of this page, we have reproduced the analyses of your direct hit and bitten bullets.
Because you only suffered one direct hit and bit very few bullets, you qualify for our second highest award. A good achievement!

this week i promise to bring you at least one pride link a day. here is the stranger’s 2003 queer issue

going to get some sleep, have a good night.

 

and we wonder why the country is in a state

On June 30, 2003, in rants, by keifel

i have the misfortune of doing work for the miscreants that purport to run this country. and if the way this job is organised (actually disorganised and mismanaged), then i’m not surprised by the state the country is in.

the person that’s supposed to liase with the agency, is an arrogant, self-important, pus ridden, infected, affected twat. and is seriously angling herself for me to tell that to her.

i should be more angry, but the good feelings that have be engendered since friday and vic’s impending arrival are holding sway. i needed to exorcise that bit of vitriol before i continued work. i’m making changes, to what remains of the template that was developed.

i’ll be back later.

 

i’m reorganising the post of the first 6 days, which i’d posted on a blog, here in chronological order.
i feel somewhat like winston, although i’m not revising history, the js ability to make the post appear to have been on a specific date is really orwellian.

just wanted to say that, and plug my early blog enteries.

adieu.

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…and counting

On June 30, 2003, in links, love, lust, longing, by keifel

there are 18 days til vic gets here.

if the dreams get any more intense i’m going to spontaneously combust. today is the halfway point, since we’ve gotten all the tickets and this trip has become our talisman, our holy grail. there is a small voice in the back of my head trying to tell me calm down, there are a million things that could go wrong between, now and then. i know it’s the voice of reason, but i don’t want to conceive spending another month apart from vic.

even as we gear up for this trip, i’m looking at long weekends later in the year, where we can get away to see each other. my mind is a jumble right now, my heart is racing, i have this whimsical smile on my face, so many thoughts are racing through my head right now. i’ll come back this, i can’t concentrate, put what i’m thinking into words, maybe it’s not so much my brain, as my heart. i’m happy and i’m in love.

after all that joy, i have a couple pieces of distressing news.

first, one of the grand dames of film, kathrine hepburn, died,

secondly, a us constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage?

and finally, why is it people (it’s not just americans) feel that someone else is responsible for their children (it’s a two part article) and their behaviour (thanks laura), this kind of thing always distresses me to read. it’s always some external factor, no one wants to admit, they’ve not done the best they can for their children. this is a whole other post, i’m going to stop here.

HAPPY PRIDE WEEK!

tonight in trinidad:

Movie Night featuring Phillip Pike’s “Songs of Freedom” a film documenting the GLBT Community of Jamaica, with an original score composed by Toronto musician Quammie. Hosted by DENI.

Time: 07.00 pm till | ADMISSION: FREE | All events are held at Bohemia

i’m off to work, i’ll be back later.

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the simple things

On June 29, 2003, in personal, by keifel

i realised i didn’t put in the number of days til vic gets here: 19

after a long, pleasant, dream filled nap, i had to go pick up the girls.
music is an interesting thing, there are songs that you’ll always associate with a moment, a person. tonight i was fortunate enough to hear the two songs that remind me about the two non-blood relations that mean the most to me. my best friend and my wife. it also made me think about love. how it’s possible to love two people in completely different ways and want the same thing for them both – their complete happiness.
there is no point to this, no greater meaning, just glad that i have these people in my life. i feel very centred, i’m in a good place.
another calming aspect of the evening is watching children sleep, my younger daughter and her sister (long complicated story, let’s just say i have interesting family relationships) have this habit of falling asleep as soon as they get in a car. it’s beautiful to behold.

i’m going to chat with my wife. have a good night.

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