CunningLinguist

well i ran my first production meeting today. 25 minutes total, none of the usual dithering and idle fucking talk. now it`s just a matter of putting out the stupid little conflagrations that insufficient instructions tend to start. my boss is out but, left a set of incomplete instructions, including booking a double page ad, the problem is no one is around to approve the budget and none of his underlings have any fucking clue as to what is going on.

that`s been shelved until i get better instructions. i`m also debating resigning when my boss gets back tomorrow. it may just encourage to get off my fucking ass and take control of my situation. but then i`ll also be broke and without a fucking job, it`s not like the freelance work has been piled up at my door.

we shall see

that people feel they can use you and when you get pissed off and draw the line, they must be more vexed than you?

i made a promise to myself on my birthday, i will cease being a fucking doormat. i will help my friends but i refused to be used conveniently.

i didn`t do much of anything today, trying to ride out the flu and get into a position to head out to work tomorrow.

my boss is out again tomorrow, but she`s back on wednesday and we`re meeting again. i think i`m going to take charge and have a production meeting in the morning because i`m going have to take a load of shit on wednesday for the things that weren`t finished for her to take on her presentation.

it`s as hot as hell and the achy portion of the flu has started. i`m not as miserable as i was yesterday and i can breathe currently, i`m wondering what a day in the ac is going to do to me.

well not really, i`m fighting the cold. but i`m trying some positive reinforcement, cause come hell or high water, i`m partying tonight and tomorrow night too as a matter of fact.

last night was on the whole a good night. i never really realised how much i drink while i`m playing pool til it`s time to go home. i managed to break even again last night. i`m seeing my game improving and i`m proud of myself.

i`m in the office checking up on the presentation material because as much as i hate my job, i will do it to the best of my ability. i need to make some more prints and then it`s home to get some rest.

overwhelmed [they were], over experienced [i am].

so that`s how it went, from the time i got there they were gushing about the resume and the work experience. and then there was the subtle hint about the dress code, mind you i showed up in a pressed shirt [short sleeved], slacks and shoes. i wanted them to know what they were getting into. and they rose to the bait. why is it in this day and age, a 6` 2″ tattoo`d, pierced and dreadlocked man has to continue to endure this colonial mentality.

i could of course just be paranoid, but the head of the marketing dept blinked when i told her what i wanted to be paid. and that`s never a good sign.

we shall see, they said they had more interviews and the hr dept would get back to me next week [if i made the cut, implied, not said]

i did run into a friend afterward who promised to pass on some other opportunites to me, so the afternoon was still semi-productive.

going to savour my naked time in my house.

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what is the chemical reaction that causes a state of almost uncontrollable arousal after bouts of anger and frustration?

i have been on edge since yesterday and my dreams last night were…

let`s just use the words lascivious, salacious, wanton even and that`s being generous.

i`m awake and the sensations of the dream still haven`t left me. i don`t think that`s such a bad thing. as much as i`d like to skip work and go to the interview this afternoon, i do still have responsibilities. there is the presentation material to print and ensure it gets pasted up and of course i have to burn my portfolio to cd, so i definitely need to go into the office.

it`s not even the first of the month and the money situation is already almost untenable. this is primary on the list of reasons i need a new job, i need more money, i also need health care and less stress.

i`m off to prettify, well at least attempt to look like i`m serious about wanting this job. i`ll be back later and i`ll most certainly be back after the interview with details.

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i went back to ruby tuesday`s today with my boss, the meal was good but marred somewhat by the surreal nature of the conversation. i`m not at liberty to say anything about the conversation, sufficed to say it was very strange and involved my continued commitment to the agency.

whatever. i`m going to get some food and have a shower, even with the torrential rains all day today it`s still hotter than ever.

i haven`t done shit at work for the day, and i`m pretty damn proud, i don`t feel like and really there is nothing for me do. on top of which, i`m planning on leaving early this afternoon, too.

how do i do it, enquiring minds want to know? be skilled at what you do. i don’t lie, i don`t fake sick, i`m good at my job and when i have something to do, i get it done. so now with little or nothing to do i`m bored out of my skull.

i should be getting my new and improved folio together. yeah, i got biz cards from the office which is usually a sign that i`m about to change jobs. and i got a call from the bank today for the first interview. if do good here, i can look forward to an assessment and the HR interview to see if i`m mentally capable of working for this upstanding organisation. that should be fun.

off to lunch. be back later.