perfectionist with a god complex
i just bitched about a lack of appreciation and voila, my friend sarah, who i did the programme for her art show, just dropped off a bottle of jd in gratitude. she didn`t need to, i volunteered to help out, i did.
but she did. i`m touched. and these are the little things that make me continue doing what i do.
i`m heading home to take a nap or veg out on the couch.
have a good evening.
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artist longing to be recognised. this is an addendum to a comment i made on tamale`s journal.
why is it so hard to be an artist/writer/young[ish] person with even a modicum of talent and good sense in this country? why we have to fucking suffer so? why we have to put up with the shit and the late payment [if you self employed], the lack of appreciation, the `just` philosophy, the fuckwits in management [how the fuck did someone so stupid become your boss and the sub question, are you the bigger idiot for working for them?], the nepotism?
is this just a caribbean thing or does happen everywhere?
this is not a rant, i`m a little too tired to work up the proper levels of vitriol and righteous indignation a the moment. i`m debating applying for a government scholarship to do a masters in graphic art. but knowing the kind of morons i`m dealing with, it begs two questions, will i get it and what the fuck are they going to do with me if i do.
imaginary conversation
them: what is your masters in?
me: graphic arts, typography specifically.
them: what`s that?
me: the use and application typefaces in design
them: what is design?
followed quickly by screaming [not sure at this point if it`s mine or theirs]
there was a point to this. i think is time to start our own. it might be a pipe dream to produce good work and get paid for it, but you have to hold on to something right?
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i got in last night, flight got delayed about 35 minutes and i was waiting for a ride, so by the time i got home it was close to midnight. i`m still exhausted. spent most of yesterday after the presentation, doing fuck all. i had a couple of drinks with the competition, then had joined the potential client and one of the other agencies for lunch.
in the time between our presentation and drinks and lunch i finished my book. [go out and get this book, it`s fantastic] after lunch i went back to the room and relaxed in the jacuzzi which was not as much fun as it should have been without vic. i watched stealing havard til it was time for checkout then left for the airport.
ended up liming with some other advertising folks in the airport while we waited for our delayed flight. apparently liat [the airline we flew on] is perpetually late. in some places LIAT is an acronym for late, if at all. so we should be grateful that we didn`t spend another night in grenada.
i got a lift home with the gm of one of the competing ad agencies, i think i may need to be nicer to my boss. the woman asked if always talk to my boss that way. `what way?` [i asked somewhat innocently, knowing perfectly well what she meant.] `like you don`t respect her.` well the sad truth is i don`t. but i really should try to hide it better, i never realised that i was so obvious.
but here i am back at work, got some sleep last night but i`m still tired.
i should try and get some work done, i`ll be back later.
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well that went well, and really i`m not being facetious. the presentation went very well, my boss dind`t embarrass as much as i thought she would. and the question and answer period went well, so i have the rest of the day to myself. well we have lunch with the client and the other agencies presenting.
i`m leaving grenada at 9:30 [barring delays] so i`ll post a summation of the days events.
have a good day, i`m going to finish my book and catch some rays.
i had a lovely sleep til i was awoken by my stomach and now that i`ve eaten, i`m going to go back to my room and finish reading my book, i love this place, there`ll be pictures tomorrow. i`m almost loathe to find out the cost of the rooms, it`s just so nice.
thankfully, i`ve seen very little and heard less of the prattling of my boss, we did go try to get some binding done, but i think my monosyllabic answers threw her, so she`s off getting sorbet and annoying someone else. i had a large, late lunch type of thing, so i should be go for the rest of the evening.
we`re right on the beach so some time tonight i`ll come down and say a prayer and medititate a bit. i`m not a big fan of religion, but i do believe and feel the connection a power greater than myself, particularly when i`m close the water.
i`m not going to talk to vic online tonight, the office with the internet connection closes at 9, so i`ll try to share some of my joy and peace with her spiritually.
stay tuned, i`ll be back tomorrow, same bat time, same bat channel
i`m at the spice island beach resort in grenada [vic we`re coming here, the bathroom is huge and the jacuzzi is real adult size]
i`ve been napping since i checked in for my flight at four am, airports are not made to sleep in but at least piarco does not do that piece of nonsense where they put a partition between every two seats so you can`t stretch out. so i slept in the airport, i slept on the plane, got here checked in, had a shower, had breakfast, checked the equipment and now like the addict i am, i`m here posting.
where is here you ask? it`s the business centre of the hotel ie a desktop computer, a inkjet printer in a tiny room with ac, for which my room is billed US$10 an hour. so i`m going to make the most of it, i have multiple windows open checking mail, reading the news [oh safari, oh camino, oh mozilla, how i miss thy tabbed browsing] and aim is up, hoping vic shows soon. 🙂 [if we miss each other, i`m safe love, exhausted but safe]
i should go sleep but you know that point where you`re too tired to sleep? yep that`s it, i have officially been up for 27 hours.
i`m going to go to my room now and finish my book and then have a nap. hope your day goes well. adieu
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i am packed and by all rights i should be sleeping, but it`s 1:30 am and the taxi is going to be here in two hours. if i got to sleep now, there is no way, i`m going to get up on time.
which brings me to the title of my post, when i was a wee lad; and for those of you that know me, i know that can be hard to imagine, i was once wee. anyway, my mother and i used to go to jamaica every christmas, my maternal grandparents lived there, my mother is jamaican; more things about me you didn`t know, again with the straying, must be exhaustion. the flight to jamaica, left trinidad at 7am and with the 2 hour check-in we needed to be there by five, my mother would stay up all night, packing and then sleep on the plane. looks like i`ve come full circle. i`ve been up since 6am yesterday morning. it`s an inconsequential flight [35 minutes] so by the time i fall asleep, i need to get up again. it`s my intention to check in and crawl into bed and sleep til noon. but you know the road to hell is paved with good intentions.
i have no idea what the internet situation, so this maybe my last post til i return on wednesday night. i`m going to check out some other blogs, then go get dressed. be safe. caio.
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finish making prints for presentation
build powerpoint template
build powerpoint document
burn cds with presentation
pick up dry cleaning
pick up pants from tailor
buy shoes[scrapped]
do laundry[not fucking happening at this point, dirty jeans it is.]
wash hair[that will get done at the hotel]
pick mother up from airport[arranged]
properly clean shoes if buying shoe is unsuccessful[arranged]
pack
i forsee there not being enough hours in this day, still i`m rather looking forward to all of this, i`m already in the office, the printer is still chugging away. the presentation document isn`t done yet and i`m trying to leave early to get some of my shit done. and all of this running around via public transportation. joy. [the public transport is the part that suck ass, badly with teeth]
i`ll be back during the day with updates.
the question is, why is this so much fun, when the culmination of these events is spending two whole days with the brainless wonder. oh joy, in a two hour period yesterday, she called like 14 times. and she had been here for three hours. but i`ve started stocking up on the movies, i got two from PT, i have a batch of futurama episodes on my machine, i have the years of rice and salt to finish. all in all, a couple days worth of avoidance right there. hopefully the per diem will allow for me not to have to take me meal with her and i`ll be fine.
ok, time to get cracking on that to do list.
* edit, it`s 6:05pm, and i just got the text for the ppt and proposal document. wish me luck.
** update 11:30pm, last of the proposals printing, hopefully i can go home and get 3 hours fucking sleep at least
i need some distractions. this is how the game goes, you pick the fourth [4th letter] of your last js visitor and list as many words as you can [no peeking in the dictionary]. you can do this on your own or continue from here.
zip
zero
zinc
zygote
zoo
zephyr
zap
zircon
zany
zebra
zucchini
zax
i`m stuck but knock yourselves out.
Jera – Harvesting tangible results from efforts already sown, fertility, culmination of events, abundance.
Gebo – Gifts, partnerships on all realms, sex magick, brilliance, integration of energies.
Thurisaz – Beginning new projects, luck-the hand of fate helping you, protection, the hammer of Thor, opening gateways.