i had to get out of the apartment today. it was driving me insane. i got up early this morning, did a few laps in the pool, came back upstairs made breakfast, sorted out the mailbox on my computer and it was only 10am.
i couldn`t face another day of just sitting around there doing nothing. i get very agitated when i have nothing to do and it`s not like i have my friends to call and hang out with. having all this time on my hands is frustrating.
i think it can summed up in one word, lonely. it seems so complete. i`ve gone through this before, so i know i can survive it, but why does it seems so insurmountable now.
i need to find something to do with my time. so that the hours stop crashing against me like this. i suppose when i get an internet connection at home it will keep me better occupied, but i need to get out more.
i went out to the opening of a new club on friday night, not necessarily because it`s something i enjoyed, but it was better than sitting around at home and doing nothing. i`m not a particularly big fan of crowds and i think my days for sweatily rubbing up against people are pretty much over.
ok enough bitching. going to look for some software so i can use my palm as a remote for my tv.
i had to get out of the apartment today. it was driving me insane. i got up early this morning, did a few laps in the pool, came back upstairs made breakfast, sorted out the mailbox on my computer and it was only 10am.
i couldn`t face another day of just sitting around there doing nothing. i get very agitated when i have nothing to do and it`s not like i have my friends to call and hang out with. having all this time on my hands is frustrating.
i think it can summed up in one word, lonely. it seems so complete. i`ve gone through this before, so i know i can survive it, but why does it seems so insurmountable now.
i need to find something to do with my time. so that the hours stop crashing against me like this. i suppose when i get an internet connection at home it will keep me better occupied, but i need to get out more.
i went out to the opening of a new club on friday night, not necessarily because it`s something i enjoyed, but it was better than sitting around at home and doing nothing. i`m not a particularly big fan of crowds and i think my days for sweatily rubbing up against people are pretty much over.
ok enough bitching. going to look for some software so i can use my palm as a remote for my tv.
This is a two part question.
What are your plans for New Years Eve?
Second question….
If your plans are not what you`d really like to do….what would be your ideal night of fun for New Years Eve
well i`m going to be completely alone for this new years. another new year`s without vic. sigh. so my major plan is not get too depressed. i`m holding on to that, best i can.
what i`d really like to do is to have vic in my arms. start a new year, together. sex would be fantastic, but at this point, i`d just like to hold her in my arms and give thanks for another year.
what the fuck?!?!?
cable and wireless jamaica showed up at my apartment yesterday and connected my phone line, that`s all well and good, but they didn`t provide me with a phone. i have to buy a telephone, separately.
what the fuck!
i have mice in my apartment. i saw the little fuckers, scurrying around last night. what the fuck! i put my garbage out everyday, i don`t leave stuff lying around, i wipe down my counters. how the fuck do i have mice? i feel so violated. i need to buy disinfectant and purify my kitchen. [shudder]
this is a good but somewhat old, `what the fuck`. 606 takes?
i`m not in a bad mood, i`m actually pretty relaxed, the first leg of my logo designs got approved, from about 12 we`re down to six, i`m looking forward to working on that today, plus i have two other media projects to work on. i feel good.
i`ve been watching a lot of tv.
there is no where to really unpack the books yet and i`ve sworn off the freelance gigs for a while and i have no internet connection at home, all of this means i have lots of free time on my hands.
i have a 100+ channels but find myself watching basically four channels. i`ve turned into a law and order junkie, i really think they should start a L&O network. all L&O, all the time.
i`m also hooked on the first hour of adult swim, at last i have real cable, with cartoon network and not cartoon network LA. i`m catching up on my samurai jack. i`ve always recognised the genius of the show, but now i`m getting nuance, there are all these literary references and night before last there was a scene that borrowed liberally from the dennis sketch in monty python and the holy grail and i was laughing my ass off.
but it`s not just samurai jack; futurama, family guy, jackie chan, even kim possible have all these nuances and subtext and generally i find animated series tend to be better written than most of the sitcom stuff. most sitcoms are an anathema to me.
when it comes to movies, i`m not a snob, but for my television, it has to be well written and the dialogue has to catch me. which is why i`m such a fan of gilmore girls. yes, i admit it, i like gilmore girls and to use an excuse from my youth, i watch it for the dialogue.
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December 25th was previously the Birthday of the Unconquered Sun in Rome and honored the Etruscan god Sol. In 10 B.C. the god was changed to Apollo and in the 2nd century to the Persian deity Mithras. Mithras lived six centuries before Christ and was the son of the Supreme god of light. His birth was attended by sheperds and he was sent to slay the huge bull of creation. Mithras had a last supper of bread and wine with his followers before he died and it was believed that he would return at the end of time to judge the dead.
before i get started on this post i would like to say, i love my career, if i had to do over again, i`d make a lot of the same choices.
that said, advertising is not a 9 to 5 industry, well maybe for some of the staff, but once you`re a member of the creative department, your hours tend to be longer particularly during the peak period. last night was my first late night at my new job, i doubt it will be my last.
i`ve been in this industry a while and in the beginning late hours were part and parcel of my life. in the closing moments of my first marriage i was working 20 hours days. once you start down that path, it becomes the norm rather than the odd occasion.
advertising is a soul sucking business, particularly if you let it. i think we`re at the bottom of the food chain, even lower than lawyers. with lawyers you know what to expect, with advertising, it`s all smoke and mirrors. there is no matrix, there is only advertising.
but nothing beats the buzz of working in an agency. yes, i bitched about my last job, but that was because i was really unhappy there. this job is reminiscent of my first agency environment. there is a sense of camaraderie, the art-room is loud and boisterous at times, it has character.
i`ll be the first to admit advertising has made me more cynical, but i am a not my job and i learned after the first time i left this industry, it`s not my life either. that`s why i enjoy george carlin`s advertising lullabye and mr. snaffleburger. it reminds me that not everyone swallows the bullshit we dispense.
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i`m just wrapping up my day at the office.
i ended up jumping in to assist in a project late this evening. and i`m about as finished as i`m going to be for the night.
two weeks and two days before my first late night. wasn`t so bad.
details tomorrow.
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last night i sat on my tiny balcony and looked at the full moon. it was a joy to behold and a thought struck me, everyone i know, everyone i care about saw the same moon at some point last night.
even if they didn`t have the time to appreciate it, we`re all together on this planet and for that moment, i realised how insignificant i am in the grand scheme of things. all my problems, all my fears on the scale of things are tiny. there are people with greater problems than mine. a lot of them life threatening.
i have people that love and care for me, i`m alive, in good health, i have a job that i really like, i can afford to eat everyday, i have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in at night. looking up in the sky last night i was truly grateful to be alive.
all my current problems are temporary and they shall pass. i have love and happiness in my life and i`m going to hold on to them for as long as i can.
