got this from honeydippedlotus
First Ten: All About You
1 | What do you wish was your name?
– I love my name, i went through a phase in my teens where i went by my second name, but now… it suits me fine.
2) What song seems to reflect you the most?
currently break stuff -limp bizkit (and that worries me greatly)
3) What thing always makes your day when it happens/ you see it?
seeing my daughter asleep
4) If you could change one of your qualities, what would it be and why?
temper my biting wit
5) What in your life influences you the most?
victoria and my children. whatever i do in my life directly affects them
6) What has been your wildest/best/most interesting fantasy? Has it come true?
no comment. suffice to say its has.
7) Which feature of yours do you love? Which do you hate?
my brain. ive gotten to a point where im happy with how i am.
8) If you had to have a picture be your symbol, what would it be and why?
hmmm, the moon, it reflects the brilliance of other bodies.
9) What would you title the movie or soundtrack of your life?
999 Days
10) What are you most disappointed with so far?
that im married 18 months and havent spent as many days with my wife
Next Five: About Others
11) Whats one quality that makes a person worth being around?
– Sense of humor
12) Whats one thing about a friend that always pisses you off?
lack of loyalty
13) Ok, now vent your worst people experience:
too man to count
14) What is a major turn on?
intelligence, sense of humor and great legs
15) If you could create the perfect person, what three qualities would they have and what would they look like?
brilliant, funny, talented. long legs and a lovely smile.
Last Five: About Life
16) What confuses you the most about life?
why people are so intolerant
17) What is one thing that goes on that makes you want to scream?
stupid people
18) Which matters more, peoples words or actions? Why?
actions. im in advertising, i sell lies for a living…
19) Does love really make the world go round? Is love present in todays world?
it does. its hanging in there
20) What is one issue is most important to you?
tolerance
i must not fear. fear is the mind killer. fear is the little death that brings about total obliteration. i will face my fear. i will permit it to pass over me and through me. and when it has gone past, i will turn with the inner eye to see its path. where the fear has gone, there will be nothing, only i will remain.
i just got up this morning and read ks blog, it made me realise the nature of fear, ive started settling back in here, creating a life of some sorts, doing regular things, settling for a mediocre job, thinking about buy a car. as if being in trinidad is no longer a transient state. i still havent called the embassy. i know its not a fear of moving somewhere new, it is the most constant fear i have…
the fear of rejection.
what do i do if they say no? what is my next step? i cant/dont want to continue seeing vic every couple of months, missing holidays, birthdays, wedding anniversaries. i need answers.
my brezsney today seems to be some sort of sign:
Music by Eminem can pump up a listeners audacity. Because its wicked beats and hysterically ferocious sentiments raise testosterone levels in both men and women, songs from his CD 8 Mile may also increase ambition, boost pride, and encourage forceful self-expression. You would greatly benefit from this kind of arousal in the coming week, Virgo. Your fervent assertiveness will be crucial to the well-being of both you and your cohorts. I suggest, then, that you cue up 8 Mile, slip on the headphones, and crank up the volume. To accomplish the same result with the help of more elegant forms of masculine power, listen to the speeches of Martin Luther King, Jr. or read *Long Walk to Freedom: The Autobiography of Nelson Mandela.*
time to face the office. adieu.
Technorati Tags:
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i generally love heist flicks. i also love ensemble casts. so i was in my glee with the italian job, it was a fun, entertaining, and fun to watch. and the score kicked major ass, im on amazon now, checking it out. one of the reasons im listening to pink floyds money is because there is a version in the film and it stuck in my head all the way home. (its not even available yet. sigh. onto the wishlist it goes. )
its always good to go see a film where the cast has fun together, i think its one of the reasons oceans 11 appeals to me so much. the original wasnt anywhere as good as the remake. i, however, havent seen the original italian job, so it too joins the list.
i should get to bed. as much as i dont want to, ive going work later. and its going to be just as bad as yesterday. i have a shoot at 1:30pm, i have no model and no costume. i also have to finish preproduction for fridays shoot. im praying to every deity i know to cut me some kind of slack on friday – clear skies, fairly uncrowded beach. is that too much to ask? and i have more work to do. you know i wouldnt mind so much if the pay even compensated for the volume of work i have to do.
fuck it, im going to hold on to my good mood and do you know why im in a good mood…
BECAUSE VICTORIA IS GOING TO BE HERE IN 30 DAYS
(aint html cool)
thank you and good night. i`ll be here all week, remember to tip your waitresses.
include the links…
triple-dip tips (this one is especially for PTG, although i’m sure she knows all of this already)
the weekly dose of savage love
that’s all folks.
this one is circulating all over and its helping me calm down after todays multiple fiascos. im going to try and finish it before i head off to see the italian job at the movie. your true friends always know when you need that pick me up.
DESCRIBE YOUR…
Wallet –black old navy
Hairbrush – no need.
Toothbrush – green & white reach medium
Jewelry worn daily – wedding ring, thin white gold chain, earrings
Pillow cover – what ever my mother hands me
Blanket –ditto
Coffee cup –dont drink coffee or tea, hence no cup
Sunglasses – none, thinking about getting a pair however
Underwear – mostly m&s and old navy boxer briefs
Favorite shirt – red voile shirt, white with blue and khaki hawiian-esque shirt
Cologne/Perfume –dont wear any
CD in stereo right now – no more cds, just mp3s, 19Gb of them
Tattoos – large piece on my back, pic in the gallery, daughters names in sanskrit on my biceps, oroubus on right forearm, comet on my left forearm, moon on right bicep
Piercings – 2 left ear, 1 right ear, tongue
What you are wearing now – blue m&s boxer briefs
In my mouth –nada mas
In my head – i wish there is someway i could let vic know i was going to the movies now
Wishing – vic was going to the movies with me
After this – the italian job
Fetishes –spanking, dominance, submission, role reversal
If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? –noone
Person you wish you could see right now – victoria
Some of your favorite movies – the princess bride, oceans 11, secretary, fight club, the good the bad and the ugly, amelie, moulin rouge
Something youre looking forward to in the upcoming month – 31 days til vic gets here
The last thing you ate – lunch (baked chicken, salad & rice)
Something that you are deathly afraid of – dying alone
Do you like candles – on occasion
Do you like incense – some
Do you like the taste of blood – mine
Do you believe in love – completely
Do you believe in soul mates – absolutely
Do you believe in love at first sight – without a doubt
Do you believe in Heaven – nope
Do you believe in God – A god
What do you want done with your body when you die – cremated and my ashes scattered
If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be – a big cat
What is the latest youve ever stayed up – does a week without sleep count?
Can you eat with chopsticks – not very well
Whats your favorite coin – quarter
What are some of your favorite candies – twix, extra polar ice, mint skittles
Whats something that you wish people would understand –i dont know everything
Whats something you wish you could understand better – i cant do everything
Who is someone that you really wish was still around –vics dad. he was an amazing person and i wish i could have know him better.
wow, this didnt take as long as i expected. nice. i feel a lot better, im going to throw some clothes on to head off to the movies. ill either post my thoughts on it when i get back or i’ll post in the morning. adieu.
im a day away from handing in my resignation, im not sure how much more this level of shit i can deal with.
day before the shoot, the caterer/food prep my boss organised is unable to provide the quality and kind of food we need for the shoot. they dont have the garnishes, they dont have the time. they dont even specialise in the menu. on top of which my boss is unhappy with the quote from the photographer and wants to use someone else. bear in mind the office closes in 30 minutes or less but the time this posted, shes out of the office right now.
its a good thing too, cause right now i just want to stab in the eye with a sharpie. i hate the fucking disorganisation and the cheapness of this place.
she doesnt want to buy flatware, she doesnt want to pay good photographers, she doesnt want to buy props, she doesnt want to pay models. cheap fuck.
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
the job does not pay me for this stress. i have 15 fucking dollars to my name. which is just enough to get me home and back tomorrow. i hate this fucking job, my contract says i have to give three days notice (before i quit) til the end of this of this month (then i have to give a month`s notice)
should i quit now? before i kill someone with stationery? (although in this fucking place i`d have to bring my own)
as i’m waiting for my pictures to convert and save, i’ve been cruising around online.
here are some interesting tidbits i found:
new tidbits to the Oxford English dictonary
ptv. lynch mtv vj? (although it is a NY Times story, it’s veracity may be in question)
i’ll be back. adieu.
include the links…
triple-dip tips (this one is especially for PTG, although i’m sure she knows all of this already)
the weekly dose of savage love
that’s all folks.
this one is circulating all over and its helping me calm down after todays multiple fiascos. im going to try and finish it before i head off to see the italian job at the movie. your true friends always know when you need that pick me up.
DESCRIBE YOUR…
Wallet –black old navy
Hairbrush – no need.
Toothbrush – green & white reach medium
Jewelry worn daily – wedding ring, thin white gold chain, earrings
Pillow cover – what ever my mother hands me
Blanket –ditto
Coffee cup –don’t drink coffee or tea, hence no cup
Sunglasses – none, thinking about getting a pair however
Underwear – mostly m&s and old navy boxer briefs
Favorite shirt – red voile shirt, white with blue and khaki hawiian-esque shirt
Cologne/Perfume –dont wear any
CD in stereo right now – no more cds, just mp3s, 19Gb of them
Tattoos – large piece on my back, pic in the gallery, daughters names in sanskrit on my biceps, oroubus on right forearm, comet on my left forearm, moon on right bicep
Piercings – 2 left ear, 1 right ear, tongue
What you are wearing now – blue m&s boxer briefs
In my mouth –nada mas
In my head – i wish there is someway i could let vic know i was going to the movies now
Wishing – vic was going to the movies with me
After this – the italian job
Fetishes –spanking, dominance, submission, role reversal
If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? –noone
Person you wish you could see right now – victoria
Some of your favorite movies – the princess bride, oceans 11, secretary, fight club, the good the bad and the ugly, amelie, moulin rouge
Something youre looking forward to in the upcoming month – 31 days til vic gets here
The last thing you ate – lunch (baked chicken, salad & rice)
Something that you are deathly afraid of – dying alone
Do you like candles – on occasion
Do you like incense – some
Do you like the taste of blood – mine
Do you believe in love – completely
Do you believe in soul mates – absolutely
Do you believe in love at first sight – without a doubt
Do you believe in Heaven – nope
Do you believe in God – A god
What do you want done with your body when you die – cremated and my ashes scattered
If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be – a big cat
What is the latest youve ever stayed up – does a week without sleep count?
Can you eat with chopsticks – not very well
Whats your favorite coin – quarter
What are some of your favorite candies – twix, extra polar ice, mint skittles
Whats something that you wish people would understand –i dont know everything
Whats something you wish you could understand better – i cant do everything
Who is someone that you really wish was still around –vics dad. he was an amazing person and i wish i could have know him better.
wow, this didnt take as long as i expected. nice. i feel a lot better, im going to throw some clothes on to head off to the movies. ill either post my thoughts on it when i get back or ill post in the morning. adieu.
31 DAYS TO VICTORIA GETS HERE
i owe, i owe, so it’s off to work i go.
today is going to be one of sort of work days i like, stuff needing to finished on tight deadlines. i have 3 ads to get out today, but the time i get in my scan should have arrived. logo designs, advertorials (god i hate that word) all due by end of day or first thing in the morning. plus all the planning and stuff for the shoot.
it’s on of those no guts no glory days. i suppose i should be bothered but i think the excitement of victoria coming and all these lovely dreams. i’ve been having the most intimate and exciting dreams, i’m holding on to the joy they bring to take me through the day.
i’ll be back later with details of the day in progress. need to catch my ride.
adieu.
