perfectionist with a god complex
there is nothing in santo domingo nothing by case number, nothing by name, nothing. i can`t get onto anyone in barbados. i`m angry to point of want to hit something, i`m sitting here trying not to start flinging stuff across the room.
what the fuck did we do to deserve this?
why is this so fucking hard?
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immigration, bureaucracy
i have the misfortune have to actually be at work at 8am and in my travels or is that travails [cause it was actually work to get here, i have no idea what i`m going to do next week when school re-opens] i got stuck in cars tuned to two of the most insipid talk show host in the country.
i`m firmly of the belief that the selection of talk radio hosts is firmly rooted in how little you now and how ignorant you can be, but the hosts are not the worst, the people that call in, oh sweet fucking god, what hole do these people crawl out from. breathe, be calm.
the reason i`m in the office this early on this fine wednesday morning is – i have a meeting, i had an 8am meeting, it`s now 8:06, meaning that the potential client is now late. which dominoes into the fact i had to get up early, skip my morning ritual, get here and she`s not here.
well, fuck it. i`m going to do something productive, i`m going to call and see what progress if any is going on with my immigration application.
i went back to ruby tuesday`s today with my boss, the meal was good but marred somewhat by the surreal nature of the conversation. i`m not at liberty to say anything about the conversation, sufficed to say it was very strange and involved my continued commitment to the agency.
whatever. i`m going to get some food and have a shower, even with the torrential rains all day today it`s still hotter than ever.
last night was lovely [and i`m not being facetious], i got rained on, on my way to dinner, but i love the rain, so i didn`t really mind. it`s nice to stand in the pouring rain watching the lightening flashing across the sky, rain water streaming down your face. i never understood why people shelter from the rain, but that`s just me.
i ended up at ruby tuesday`s last night. easiest to get to, and it`s not so bad eating there by yourself. i had the same thing that i always have [i`m like that about what i like] i`m allergic to shellfish, and fish gives me odd reactions, so i`m a carnivore. i had a great meal but i wasn`t up for the tall cake last night, so i had a hot chocolate. in the midst of my hot chocolate this woman walks in, in these hipster pants, almost made me choke. this woman was old enough to be my grandmother and it was just wrong. good thing i was getting ready to leave.
at the end of the night, the rain and the food, talking to vic, all encouraged the loveliest dreams.
shit. look at the time, i`ll finish this up later. i need to get into the office, it`s raining out, i can hear it on the roof, and the cars swishing by on the wet asphalt outside and i`m not going to use the rain as an excuse for being late.
from tamale
1. If you could change your chosen profession, what would you have done instead?
which profession is this? lol. really i would like to be an editor of some sort.
2. Do you have any fears about your future with Vic?
that we`re going to have to spend another year apart, we`re barely holding on as it is, i think another year like this would crush us.
3. What movie has drawn the most emotion/reaction from you?
recently, i`ve been on an emotional rollercoaster so anything can get a reaction out of me. real women have curves had me in tears.
4. Do you believe that where there is love between 2 people, there can ever be a threesome? (I had to ask this one)
i don`t think so.
5. One personality trait you wish you could change or are working on changing.
trying not to say the first thing that comes to my mind.
from pine tree girl
1. Do you do any visual/creative work other then type/graphic arts and if so what?
i used to take photographs, i was apparently pretty good. when i can afford it, i intend to start buying equipment and take it up again.
2. When looking back over the past year what would you do differently?
honestly, the only thing i regret doing in the last 12 months is taking the job i have now. i would have not signed on full time.
3. What is your spiritual outlook?
i believe in a power greater than myself and she has a plan for me.
4. If you were made ruler of the universe for the day what would your first order of business be?
try to get people to understand why intolerance is wrong. i couldn`t command people to be more tolerant, it would defeat the purpose i think.
5. What is your particular kink(s)?
it`s only kinky the first time. that said, hand balling and i`m slowly discovering the joys of being a switch. d/s is not about pain for us, but the surrender of control.
The rules to continue the game:
If you want to be interviewed by me for fun purposes reply to this and tell me you want to be interviewed.
1. Leave a comment saying that you want to be interviewed.
2. I`ll respond and ask you five questions.
3. You`ll update your journal with my questions and your five answers.
4. You`ll include this explanation, as I have done here, so that others can take part.
5. You`ll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.
because…
1. CRACK KILLS! no matter how you disguise it, plumbers butt is not fucking sexy.
2. if you`re under 18 [ok, 16] there is no one you need to look sexy for [besides see 1.]
3. your stomach is hanging over the top of your pants
4. you`re someone`s grandparent [act your fucking age]
5. you look like you`ve been ridden hard and left for dead [see 4]
i could go on but i have interview questions to answer. so in summation, hipster pants are a fucking abomination that should be outlawed. remember crack kills. stay away from the crack.
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hipster pants, crack kills, muffin top
there was no lunch today, but i did get an opportunity to spend $75K of imaginary money equipping an imaginary office. in that spirit, i`m treating myself to dinner. i got paid today, small and insignificant, there is no way i staying on here for anything less than double my current take home.
before you call me a greedy motherfucker, bear in mind, i was making more than this when i left my first agency job more than what i`m taking home now. on a good weekend i can make my gross salary on a project.
what do i have this job again?
nevermind, i made a promise i`d treat myself once a month, tiny salary or not. tonight i`m going to dinner, i wanted something exciting to eat tonight, i`m going to have it.
i`ll be back later.
this interview thing, it`s fun.
i`ve asked two people questions so far and i sense a pattern emerging. food, literature, sexuality. hmmmm, am i so predictable?
well my boss cancelled lunch, tomorrow most likely. i can`t say that i`m really disappointed. the problem is now i have to fend for myself and my choices here are somewhat limited, primarily because of cash flow issues [there is none] and secondarily i had worked up myself for something expensive. c`est la vie.
the rain is pouring, i can hear it on the roof, i love that sound. i wish vic was here to share it with me. my thoughts are all over the place, we haven`t heard a peep out of the client. if we get this account it`s the only reason i`d stay put. i`m not sure what this lunch meeting is about, i have two sheet of paper on my desk which summarise my job descriptions, which i`m supposed to look at. i think i would feel better about looking at them if the pay matched. i don`t want to be here any longer, i`m not sure if i mean today or this office, i`m feeling…
that`s it i`m not sure what i`m feeling right now. i should call santo domingo, but i think i`m afraid to. do i want to get this bank job, is that a sign that i`m settling in here?
i need a sign. something to help me find a direction.
3 Things about keifel liberated from fritz & karen
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | lonliness
02 | losing vic
03 | something happening to the children
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | vic
02 | lisa
03 | eddie izzard
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | vic
02 | my children
03 | my laptop
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | intolerance
02 | stupidity
03 | ignorance
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THREE THINGS I DON`T UNDERSTAND:
01 | intolerance
02 | racism
03 | poor customer service
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | speakers
02 | phone
03 | remotes
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THREE THINGS I`M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | answering this
02 | reading journals
03 | responding in a forum
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | more travelling
02 | start my own imprint
03 | grow old gracefully
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | read german
02 | set clocks, never find a clock blinking 12 when i`m around
03 | fix computers (not hardware issues)
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | sensitive
02 | perfectionist
03 | acerbic
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THREE THINGS I CAN`T DO:
01 | sing
02 | tolerate stupidity
03 | dance
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | george carlin
02 | eddie izzard
03 | my children
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THREE THINGS I DON`T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | cnn
02 | gossip
03 | my boss prattle
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | doubles
02 | thai
03 | roti
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THREE THINGS I`D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | patience
02 | italian
03 | yoga
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water
02 | guava pineapple fruta
03 | water, water, water
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | sesame street
02 | Big Blue Marble
03 | The six million dollar man
[edit: for the record, i didn`t start this, these are faymow`s interview questions for me, go check his answers]
1. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
hmmm i think we would be a multi household family if we could afford it. london is top of the list, a little way behind are the triangle in nc and australia
2. How did you and Victoria first meet?
victoria and i meet online in the personals section of nerve.com, then proceeded to chat online using aim for about 10 hours a day [all day at the office, then for about 2 – 3 hours a night, after the boy chick had gone to bed.] we met in person about 3 months after that. she saw me after a almost 30 hours of travelling and she didn`t run off. i knew it then.
3. What is the most memorable day of your life?
as cheesy as this sounds, the day vic met me at the bus station, everything about it is imprinted in my memory.
4. Whose the hottest witch – Piper, Phoebe or Paige – and why?
piper, hands down. cool, collected, hell on wheels when she needs to be and now she`s a mother. i`m a sucker for multifaceted women.
5. What is the worst experience you had on a trip?
i love to travel and almost anything that happens is chalked up as part of the adventure. [knock wood] no lost luggage, no strip searches, no major getting lost, nada [/end knock wood] that said, there is this thing people have with my hair and just reaching out and touching, that`s guaranteed to spoil my best of moods.
The rules to continue the game:
If you want to be interviewed by me for fun purposes reply to this and tell me you want to be interviewed.
1. Leave a comment saying that you want to be interviewed.
2. I`ll respond and ask you five questions.
3. You`ll update your journal with my questions and your five answers.
4. You`ll include this explanation, as I have done here, so that others can take part.
5. You`ll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.