perfectionist with a god complex
if i did give some links to steve jobs’ WWDC keynote in progress now.
for those of you with no bandwidth like myself macminute is offering live auto-updated coverage
for those of you who must see steve in the black turtleneck, the broadcast will be streamed here, afterward.
back to the grind. more info later.
i’m at work, not really slaving away, just trying to get started this morning, but i’m not quite feeling it. so in the mean time, i’ve been doing ‘research’ online. i love that word, it covers a multitude of sins and with a browser that supports tabs (plugs safari here) work and non-work are just a tab away.
and here’s what i’ve been browsing:
why americans will believe almost anything
the celebrity atheist list (not just atheists, agnostics and other non-believers are included as well)
and finally val kilmer to play john holmes (how does one rehearse for this role?)
heading the news this morning, there are only 25 days til victoria gets here.
tools for librarians (trust me on this, especially if you borrow books from the library)
it’s summer in the us (but rainy season for us folks), so here’s a list of theme park accidents as well as park reviews and safety tips
20 questions about the iraq war
and that’s a wrap. just a few tidbits, to get you through the morning, i’m heading into work now, i feel a slight unease, i’m not sure what’s bothering me, but i’m sure it will present itself soon enough
thank you mcsuperfly
1. What’s your favorite kind of cheese?
parmesean
2. How long do you hold onto odd socks before giving up on finding their mate?
you’re supposed to give them up?
3. Who was your favorite musical artist when you were 15? Yes, you can only pick one!
iron maiden
4. What shape are your fingernails in right now?
bitten to quick
5. Two scoops:
pistacho, tonight.
6. What’s your earliest memory?
getting a haircut
7. When does your pet look funniest?
don’t have pets
8. What do you collect?
books
9. What’s better than sex?
there’s something better than sex?
10. What things are you brand-loyal to?
apple computer
11. Favorite Dr. Seuss book?
hmmmm, it’s been so long
12. Best meal you’ve had lately?
steak dinner at ruby tuesdays
13. Peanut Butter and ________?
ick. hate peanut butter.
14. Who’s your favorite poet?
elizabeth barret browning
15. Where are you going on vacation this year?
vacation? ha!
16. If you could change careers tomorrow with no strings attached, what would you be?
house painter
17. Whaddya drive?
my boss crazy
18. What’s your poison?
jack daniels and coke.
19. The color of the carpet on your floor?
mottled brown
20. What’s on your walls?
paint. it’s just a temporary residence.
got this off absestos’ blog
what pre-1985 videogame character am i?
 I am Pacman.I am an aggressive sort of personality, out to get what I can, when I can. I prefer to avoid confrontation, but sometimes when it’s called for, I can be a powerful character. I tend to be afflicted with munchies constantly. What Video Game Character Are You? |
what flavour am i?
 I taste like Bread.I am a staple in almost everyone’s diet. Friends like me are a complement to any other friends I get on with almost everyone, remaining mostly in the background, but providing substance when it would otherwise be lacking. What Flavour Are You? |
what poetry form am i?
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i’d forgotten how energetic i felt after a nap on a sunday afternoon. although, it still doesn’t mean i’m leaving my house.
tonight is the final night of izahvaps (a showcase of local talent). i should go, it’s family, but it’s cold and rainy and i don’t feel like travelling anywhere. there is the complete lack of interest in the local poetry scene, i’ve heard most of them all at one point or another and i think i’m just completely fed up of the scene. it’s same set of people, blowing hot air up each others asses.
i really should be more charitable but ass kissing has never been one of my strong points. actually my thought to mouth filter, never seemed to work well. i’ve learned to bite it back as it’s about to come out. there was a point to this but i forget, so on to other things. metafilter is back up, woo hoo.
the morning news guide to urban etiquette: ny(very, very funny) and the much tamer tube guide
in praise of fuck (a nice op-ed piece)
which helps me segue right back in to my attempts to filter what comes out of my mouth. i’m of the school that there is no bad language, just inappropriate language. that said and done, there i don’t use in the presence of children. good, now that we’ve established the ground rules… as with everything else there is a time and place for everything, i try not to burst out in epithets in the office, but the stupidity level i deal with everyday is guaranteed a could of muttered ‘fucks’.
i’ve also be told that my extensive vocabulary precludes the need for me to use any inappropriate language, but there are time when nothing in my vocabulary beats a ‘motherfucker’. i’ve removed ‘cunt’ from my list of abusive language, it’s a beautiful word, to describe a beautiful body part and it’s also a powerful word, in and out of the bedroom. oh dear, i’ve managed to get this back around to sex again.
i don’t have a one track mind, i swear. going to watch a charmed rerun, be back later.
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i eventually caved and called in for food and i’ve been watching about a boy (finally saw the beginning) and hoping vic comes online. but my nocturnal activities are catching up with me. my thighs and my back hurt, i really need to drop some weight and get some exercise, i’ve never come back from a party and felt this… beaten…
need to find someway to get rid of this breathless, achy, overexerted feeling… the gym is not an option.
is this my form of self-loathing or a wake up call to self? i used to be fat child, i grew out of it, but now i’m feeling positively unhealthy. i was completely breathless and sweaty climbing those stairs the day of the site visit. i used to run 10k dammit. i need to find something i enjoy doing (well, besides that) that’s a regular form of exercise.
i’m going to take a nap and consider it.
i went out with k and danced the night away and i ache and im exhausted. there was a time when i would have been rearing to go again, right now all i want to do is crawl back into bed. and thats not a bad idea at this point, its raining, its been raining all morning, i really just got out of bed to forage for food. im ravenous, but there doesnt appear to be much to eat and i dont particularly feel like leaving the house, the whole concept of putting clothes on and going out right now is just unappealing.
even in light of all this pain and exhaustion, im still planning on going to this old school party next weekend, cmon, evelyn champagne king, live and im going to miss it? i think not.
its too early to call in for food, no fruit, dammit, looks im actually have to go out. whoops a fresh downpour i think not. there must be something id eat in here.
ill be back
btw for those of you keeping track vic will be here in 26 days
results of my kink test
and the results of an astrological chart, i had done:
Hi there, here is the interpretation of the astrological chart that you asked for. Also attached is a .GIF graphic file which depicts your chart wheel. Thank you for visiting the Astrolabe WEB site at http://alabe.com This report has been created especially for you. It represents your Unique picture at the time you were born and at the place you were born. If you are unsure of the exact time of day of your birth (or the date or the place), the reading will probably not seem as accurate as it could be in certain places, but other parts will seem to be very appropriate. You will notice at certain places in the reading that contradictory information seems to be given. This is to be expected, because the personality of most people is extremely complex. For example, at times we are quite shy and at other times we are very aggressive, and so forth. You will also notice that, at certain points in the reading, certain patterns may be repeated over and over, especially in a longer more detailed report than this one. This is also to be expected. This simply means that your horoscope has an extremely strong focus on this particular pattern and that you should pay extra close attention to what is said about it. Now, on with your Report!
Name: keifel agostini
August 23 1971
10:00 PM Time Zone is 4 Hrs. Includes daylight time if applicable.
port of spain,trin
Rising Sign is in 05 Degrees Taurus
Calm and deliberate, you hate to move quickly or act hastily. Very practical, every effort must count or you cant be bothered. Patient, persistent and steady, but very stubborn — you cant be pushed or pressured into anything. You seem outwardly self-assured because you tend to repress your inner tension and turmoil. You exude an earthy warmth, friendliness and charm. You demand comfortable surroundings and appreciate the good life. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent. At times, you are lazy and difficult to motivate. Overcoming inertia is a problem for you and, because you are not by nature a self-starter, it is often necessary for you to receive stimuli from others in order to get moving.
Sun is in 00 Degrees Virgo.
Extremely careful and cautious by nature, you value neatness and order above all else. You rigorously practice very high standards of living and conduct and you demand the same of everyone with whom you come into contact. At times, you are so supercritical that you are merely nit-picky. You are very good at practical skills and quite handy with tools of all kinds. You are also greatly concerned with hygiene, cleanliness and personal health problems. Very likely your health is much better than you think it is — dont worry so much! Extremely methodical and analytical, you are a perfectionist — this makes you the perfect person to carry out highly detailed, precise operations. But, at times, you pay so much attention to details that you lose sight of the larger issues.
Moon is in 04 Degrees Libra.
Affectionate, warm and friendly, life must be a beautiful experience for you. Unpleasantness should be avoided at all costs. You tend to overlook other peoples faults and you would rather give in than fight. You are uncomfortable with strangers, but at ease and sociable with friends and associates. Indeed, you would rather socialize than work — you can use your prodigious charm to avoid unpleasant tasks. You need the support and assistance of another in order to get you started on any new project — you are not a self-starter. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent (i.e., lazy). Your refined aesthetic sensibilities attract you to music, dance, art and any other cultured activity.
Mercury is in 05 Degrees Virgo.
Very thorough and efficient, you pay attention to the minor but important details of any project. You are a careful thinker who can learn complicated, intricate techniques. You are attracted to practical, useful skills and are probably good at working with your hands. You are very critical of yourself and others, sometimes too much so, and you get the reputation of being a nag or of being nit-picky. Your first reaction to any situation is to try to organize, classify and analyze everything!
Venus is in 29 Degrees Leo.
You have a striking, regal appearance and demeanor that attracts others to you. Your friendship is highly sought and you tend to take friendships quite seriously — you remain loyal and true to those to whom you are attached. For you, love is mixed with pride and respect. Relationships are over when you lose respect for your partner. Be careful of a tendency to relate only to those who make you look good — the powerful, important and influential. This can lead to arrogance and selfishness, and neither of these qualities becomes you.
Mars is in 13 Degrees Aquarius.
Your ideas and opinions are usually inventive and original, but sometimes they are merely eccentric and offbeat. You are altruistic — you will work hard for the attainment of group goals, as long as they meet your high standards. You tend to resent traditional authority figures because you think that your ideas are better thought out and more valuable than theirs. Very idealistic, you are a rebel WITH a cause!
Jupiter is in 27 Degrees Scorpio.
You love to dig deep beneath surface appearances in order to find out what is really happening. A persistent researcher, you are very interested in the psychology of any situation. You tend to become overwhelmed by the complexity of what you uncover, however, and that makes you a bit gun-shy about explaining things to others. But you must learn to try to communicate as best you can because what you know is really very valuable to others.
Saturn is in 05 Degrees Gemini.
You are such a clear thinker and speaker, with a logical orderly mind, that you are repulsed by abstract, intangible or unorganized thoughts or ideas. But you tend to get uptight about speaking in public because you are afraid to be wrong. Remember that the best way to learn is by making mistakes. Also, you will be so carefully prepared that you probably will not make many mistakes anyway. To be interesting to you, ideas have to be practical and useful.
Uranus is in 11 Degrees Libra.
You, as well as your entire peer group, have a very free, unstable and unconventional approach to relationships and emotional commitments. You will be attracted to experiments in marriage and shared lifestyles. Personal freedom is more important to you than entangling emotional bonds. In the realm of art and aesthetics, you are attracted to the bizarre, shocking and unusual.
Neptune is in 00 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the global village.
Pluto is in 28 Degrees Virgo.
For your entire generation, this will be a time when profound changes in societys attitude toward work, duty and responsibility will be initiated. Radical changes in attitudes toward personal health and general nutrition will be promulgated and gain wide acceptance and practice.
N. Node is in 14 Degrees Aquarius.
As long as someone else (or a group or organization) appeals to your intellectual sensibilities, youll try to ally yourself with them in some way. You may find that you always seem to get involved with many wide-ranging groups — so much so that you find it difficult to fit them all into your busy schedule. Your many friends and acquaintances provide you with needed stimulation. Youre loyal and fair-minded — you try to spend time equally with all your friends, never concentrating on just one or two for any length of time. Although probably quite conservative yourself, youre attracted to those who are a bit offbeat or eccentric — you enjoy watching their minds work.
and now im going to get dressed, k will be here in 30 minutes or less
this following week (june 19 – july 5) is pride week in trindad you can go here for the list of events.
im going with karen tonight to the non-official kickoff of pride week. i always enjoy going out with karen, i have a blast and we can point out all the cute people of any gender to each other. im eagerly awating her call. otherwise the evening has been rather uneventful, my primary browser – camino, has flaked out on me completely, it wont launch, reinstalled, dumped the prefs, only thing i can think is i installed divx on my machine and there seems to be a conflict somewhere. owning a mac, there hasnt been much a chance to seriously geek until x, so im gently probing. starting on the periphery and work my way to the root of the problem.
i really like camino, ive switched to mozilla temporarily.
amazingly metafilter is down, now where are am i supposed to find all the really cool news?
today is the summer soltice (the longest day of the year in the northern hemisphere) and in pagan worship, i believe this is another high holy day. it does help clarify what ive been feeling. a day of power coupled with the fact that tomorrow will be 9 months since i last saw vic. the combination of these factors has my body in complete and total overdrive. its a lovely sensation to be this aware of my own sensuality and desire, but with out vic, its painful, on an emotional as well as physical level.
im going to watch some tv and try blot out the sensations for a little bit. ill be back either before or after karen and i head out.