or at least i sincerely hope so. well in terms of the weather, mostly. i was on location most of yesterday on a photo shoot and even though it was hazy and overcast most of the day, we got everything done. i have more location shooting this morning and i’m hoping the weather holds. funnily, even though the photo shoot is in east trinidad and i’m in west trinidad i have to make the call on the weather, most i can see out the windows in my house looking east are clouds. this is going be such fun. ooh according weather.com, there is only a 10% chance of precipitation.
let’s get this movable feast underway. i can only hope everything goes as planned and we can wrap this up this morning.
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the next holiday thats long enough for vic to come visit is thanksgiving. thanksgiving is 5 months away. its going to be a travel nightmare, i would much rather be beginning our own thanksgiving ritual, but if thats not happening, im going to be working my ass off to get vic and julian her and back safely for the 5 days.
im going to take the inspiration, the happiness, the racing of my heart every time i think of you and focus it on getting us together. this is a powerful force. i believe in our love. this week is difficult to say the least, but im holding on to last week, the memories, the incredible joy and contentment of being in your presence. you will get me through this, as youve gotten me through the last 10 months.
I LOVE YOU VICTORIA.
there are no mountains high enough, no billboards big enough, not enough hours in the day, to proclaim how much i love you. thank you for sharing my life.
a number of songs keep running through my head, foremost among them is beds too big without you i fell asleep eventually last night, although i kept rolling over and vic wasnt there.
i need to stop crying, i know i need to, but i cant. i cried myself to sleep and woke up in tears. i have no idea how im getting through this day.
and the answer is right here:
Never knew I could feel like this
Like Ive never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day Im loving you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesnt seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And theres no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and Ill be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
we will prevail. we will be together. it will not be another 10 months.
i just took off the bandana vic left, and one of her hairs was in it. ive been out for a while, im trying to read and its a book vic left. there was an afternoon when we just curled up on the couch and read. i knew i was in love with victoria the moment i laid eyes on her, it had been building over our daily conversations but there i was tired and rumpled after a 22 hour bus ride and she smiled at me and i was hers. she introduced me to new authors, shared her love of food. and our love has grown, stronger, more expansive by the day. the ease of our interaction, our shared thirst for knowledge, our love of language, her smile, her lovely laugh.
i miss vic so much. im afraid to go to bed. i dont want to face my bed alone. im waiting to get her email to know that shes home and safe. tomorrow and the following day, im out all day on location shooting. im not sure how likely that is considering its mostly outdoor and its the rainy season, its been raining almost everyday. which reminds me about being in the apartment with vic and the rain beating on the roof.
vic i want you here. i want to be where you are. i just want you by my side.
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vic left this morning. and i was missing her from the moment she walked away from me through the gate. i won’t let it be another 10 months before i see her again. the last 10 days have been great [and no, it wasn’t just the sex], it was great to see vic, talk to her face to face, fall asleep next to her, wake up and see her face. i’m afraid to let the tears come because i don’t know if i can stop. i’m trying to hold on the joys of the last couple of days, but already this feel of lonliness is washing over me.
i’m trying to catch up on all the people on my faves list, but i don’t feel like doing much of anything. i miss vic so much already.
Baby, yes
Until the end of time
I’ll be there 4 U
U own my heart and mind
I truly adore U
If God one day stroke me blind
Your beauty I’d still see
Love is 2 weak 2 define
Just what U mean 2 me
From the first moment I saw U
Ooh, I knew U where the 1
That night I had 2 call U
I was rappin’ till the sun came up
Tellin’ U just how fine U look
In a word, U were sex
All of my cool attitude U took
My body was next
U made love 2 me
Like U where afraid
Was U afraid of me?
Was I the first?
Was I your every fantasy?
That’s why
Until the end of time
I’ll be there 4 U
U own my heart and mind
I truly adore U
If God one day stroke me blind
Your beauty I’d still see
Love is 2 weak 2 define
Just what U mean 2 me
When we be makin’ love
I only hear the sounds
Heavenly angels cryin’ up above
Tears of joy pourin’ down on us
They know we need each other
They know U are my fix
I know, that U know that I ain’t cheatin’ baby
They know this is serious
I ain’t funkin’ just 4 kicks, no
This condition I got is crucial, crucial baby
U could say that I’m a terminal case
U could burn up my clothes
Smash up my ride, well maybe not the ride
But I got 2 have your face
All up in the place
I’d like 2 think that I’m a man of exquisite taste
A hundred percent Italian silk imported Egyptian lace
But nothin’ baby, I said nothin’ baby could compare
2 your lovely face
Do U know what I’m sayin’ 2 ya this evening
I’m just tryin’ 2 say
I’m just tryin’ 2 say
That until, until the end of time
I’ll be there 4 U
I’ll be there 4 U
On my heart, on my mind, (truly adore U)
I truly adore U (darlin’)
U don’t know what you’re mean 2 me
Baby, (until the end of time)
Baby, (I’ll be there 4 U)
Baby, (U own my heart and mind)
‘Til the end of time I’ll be there 4 U
(I truly adore U)
Adore U (adore U)
Can I talk 2 U? {{chorus repeated in background}}
Tell U what U mean 2 me
Every time U wander
I’ll be your eyes so U can see
I wanna show U things
That I show no other, I wanna be
More than, more than your mother
More than your brother
I wanna be (like no) like no other
If U need me, I’ll never leave
I know, that U know, without U there is no me
There is no me
Without U there is no sea
There is no shore
Love is 2 weak 2 define how much I adore
U, child
U, child
The last words U hear
The last words U hear
(until the end of time)
I’ll be there for you, baby
(until the end of time)
Be with me darlin’ til the end of time (until the end of time)
I’ll give U my heart
I’ll give U my mind
I’ll give U my body (until the end of time)
I’ll give U my time (until the end of time)
(until the end of time)
4 all time I am with U
U are with me
(until the end of time)
U are with me, U are with me
Martin`s. 8pm. tonight.
vic and i will be at martin`s celebrating. please come join us.
[no the drinks aren`t free] but come anyway.
back to the regularly scheduled sex and bonding.
what else do you want to know? we had sex on friday night, saturday, yesterday, today.
oh and we ate, met my mother, went to a culinary festival, saw a fantastic production, met a few of my friends, watched some tv. but mostly we`ve been fucking like minx.
so move along now. nothing more to see.
well this is the last post until the 28th. vic is safely on her way. her flight left mia 8 minutes late and she`s not going to here til 7:48. which i accounted for anyway.
i`m heading up to the apartment to have a shower but i have to drop the girls off for the pig. i hope you all have a good weekend and a wonderful week. i know i`m sure as hell going to.
i`ve gotten the keys to the apt, my laundry is being done. and i`ve got some cash in my pocket. i have a friend at the airline checking to see if vic collected her ticket in mia yet. the rains have started. all is good in the world.
i just got this from faymow`s journal and it was too tasty to pass up on a day like today:
1. What`s your honest opinion on golden showers? Please share your hypothesis on why you think a person would enjoy this.
it`s not for me, if two conscenting adults want to have it. more power to them.
2. If you had a choice between never having an orgasm again or never having intercourse again, which would you choose?
i`d give up intercourse. but wait… this seems familiar.
3. Upskirt cams (voyeuristic photos of women caught unaware): hot or totally reprehensible? How about toilet cams?
Both are totally reprehensible and in poor taste.
4. Do those \”Filthy Grandmas\” pornos disturb you deeply, or do you think it`s kind of cool that diverse ages are represented in the adult entertainment industry?
again, not for me. but i`d like to think vic and i`ll still be active at that age.
5. What`s the weirdest fetish a friend or acquaintance has ever admitted to you?
i have a lot very sexually liberal friends. so they`re all over the place.
it’s almost 6am and i’ve been laying on my bed tossing and turning. i haven’t been able to sleep. the hours are drifting by almost too slowly. i supposed one i get going on all the things i have to finish and get done today, i’ll have less time to ponder the minutes and the seconds.
i don’t think there are words in my vocabulary to describe how happy i am today, about now vic is heading to the airport in nashville, i’m sitting here checking the weather in nashville and miami, checking the airline for delays. trying to plan out all the other things i need to get done to day and none of it seems particularly important. i’ve been married 18 months today. a year and a half and most of that has been spent away from vic. it’s been 9 months and 27 days since i saw her last. and this evening everything is going to be reset. for the next 10 days, we’re going to be together. i can listen to her voice, see her laugh, feel her skin against mine, look at her, burn her image in my retaina, to hold in my head and my heart for as long as it takes for me to see her again.
i’m going to get ready to deal with today, i’ll be back later to post my wrap up for the next 10 days. have a great day
