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you don’t look like an average horti-fucking-culturalist

July 7, 2003 — Leave a comment

i just lost this cry of anguish i’d written about missing vic and the fustration of know how much longer i have to wait and lost it. i was adding a post script welcoming the newest addition to the trini [even if she displace in h’inglan] contingent here at js – rentaempress and hit the wrong combination of keys. whatever.

the crux of the lost post is that i don’t want to wait anymore, i want her to be here now. i’m tired of waiting. i tired of being patient and pleasant to fucking nimord. i’m tired of the stupid question. i’m tired of people thinking that i like this situation. i’m sitting in a job, marking time, separated from my wife, trying to keep my sanity in check on a daily basis. vic is my talisman and i need a renewal of faith.

i’m going to pay the taxes on vic’s ticket, have lunch and return these dvd. maybe i’ll be able to focus and function after lunch.

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we shall drown them in their own confusion

July 7, 2003 — Leave a comment

school is closed and my boss isn’t in, which means i slept that extra 30 minutes. i should get going, but i’m enjoying being out of clothes for as long as possible. is it possible to be this aroused and still have brain function?

i feel like i’m going to explode, every fibre, every nerve ending is screaming want and desire. in some wicked way my body is reminding me what i’m missing, i keep getting these hints of the smell and taste of vic. it has to be my mind, but it’s just cranking me up more and more. i want to feel her skin next to mine, i want to be lost in kissing her, i want to be worshipping at her altar… kissing… nibbling… sucking…

i’m going to go now

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whole lotta love

July 6, 2003 — Leave a comment

what more could i ask for? well we all know the answer to that. but i had a nice long nap, lovely dreams, got up had lunch, watched some of the movies i borrowed, only lock stock and adaptation to watch.

may take those on tomorrow in the office.

metafilter is down but daze is not so i give you a mass of sex and related links [also trying something with format of the links]:

the history & logistics of celebrity dating

…Early on, studio bosses and gossip columnists recognized the value of a great real-life love story, understanding that fans lived vicariously through their movie idols. So from the ‘20s until the studio system disintegrated in the ‘60s, the bosses — who exercised absolute authority over their actors — fabricated fake dalliances and exploited real ones for two purposes: first, to create new stars by attaching them to established ones, and second, to cover up the homosexuality or potentially tarnishing behavior of a star…

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taking liberties with harry potter

Thousands of spinoffs of J.K. Rowling’s novels – many steamy with graphic sex – can be read on the Internet. But why is this fan fiction, often of questionable legality, allowed to flourish?

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the harry potter innuendo list

Upon recieving The Order of the Phoenix, we couldn’t help but notice the high frequency of the phrase “Flat on his back”. Alerted by this fact, we looked a little closer and compiled a list of wonderfully out of context quotes for the amusement and edification of all. Curiously, most of them seem to involve either Fred and George or Snape.

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some photo links

a good jumping-off point. some of the more interesting diversions include:

my illustrated life of a sex slave [specially for k & h, not together, unless they want to]

and diana scheunemann has some very interesting stuff as well

and finally your moment of zen:

The vagina monoliths: Stonehenge was ancient sex symbol

…a University of British Columbia researcher who has investigated the great prehistoric monument for several years has announced he has uncovered its true meaning: it is a giant fertility symbol, constructed in the shape of the female sexual organ…

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now more filling

July 6, 2003 — Leave a comment

sunday brunch

Have you or would you ever try any of the following….

1. Bungee jumping or Skydiving?

2. Scuba diving or Snorkeling?

3. Downhill skiing or snowboarding?

4.  Whitewater rafting or Water skiing?

5.  Hang gliding or Hot Air Balloon ride?

nerve has renamed the week in sex but it’s all still the same fun stuff

the flat earth society (believe it, believe it, it is true)

the automatic bad movie trailer generator

ok, i’ve im’d some tech support, now i can get some sleep.

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keep searching, keep searching, you’ll find it…

July 6, 2003 — Leave a comment

not quite bright eyed and bushy tailed but awake, just managed to catch the beginning of the race.

the dreams are back and oh my… just thinking about it… i’m getting shivers. i’m trying to keep myself under control. i want share these dreams but i think they’ll lose some of their poignance. dammit i want vic here now.

two weeks from now we’ll be getting ready for the family soiree, vic gets to meet the girls and my mother and grandmother.

there is show much i want to show vic, but i’m torn, we have so little time together, can i bear to share her companionship with anyone else? i want to be selfish, keep her to myself, wrap her up in my arms and never let her go. 12 days left.

i just found this gem on girlunderway’s journal, which is the saturday slant from the link listed as quizzes & memes in the entertainments section in that column on the right:

What is your most common fantasy?

While sitting in traffic or waiting on-queue somewhere, where does your mind drift? Is it to a moonlit tropical beach, a dream man (or woman) in your arms? Perhaps you wander to a memory of coming in from a long day of snowball fights, sledding, and making snow angels to be greeted by Mom’s hot chocolate. Do you fantasize about how you would spend a fortune? We all day dream; we all have one or two day dreams that occupy our minds more often than others. What is your most common fantasy?

i’m not sure i’m quite ready to answer this yet, they all revolve around the dreams, so i’m going to leave it here for a little bit, maybe later…

in the mean time here’s a sunday what if (this one that’s up now is too depressing, so here’s the one from june 8 (that’s the next one in the list):

if you could have witnessed one event in history, what would you want to have seen?

guttenberg’s first print run.

f1 just finished, it’s ralph, JMP and michael, in that order. with michael leading the driver’s championships by eight points. and ferrari the constructors by three points. the rest of this season is going be very interesting.

back to bed, see if the dreams continue. i’ll be back later.

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i am so addicted

July 6, 2003 — Leave a comment

it’s almost five am, i’ve just got in from the pride party and what do i do? log on of course. how sad is that?

the party was ok, not great, just ok. definitely not a poolside party. i had fun danced a little, had a strange man try to pick me up, but it was a gay fete, what else did i expect. it was a bit of an ego boost, until he started to get fresh. why is it a dance has to turn into something more, this is whole new millennium, you don’t try to get intimate with someone you just met at a party. how unsafe and classless is that? even if i were interested that would be a major no no. it saddens me to think that this sort of behaviour still exists.
i still had a good time. poolside is having a party at the end of august, but my usual riding partner, k, isn’t going to be here. who will defend my honour.

anyway, i’m going to apply for this job that monster just presented in my mailbox and head off to bed. hopefully i’ll get up in time for the start of the french grand prix. i slept through the beginning of last week’s race and missed most of it.

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she’s safe

July 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

just got an email from vic. she’s alive and well.

i feel a lot better now. so i’m out. party starts at 11, k is supposed to be here in 30 minutes, pre party drinks and then on with the show. i don’t expect  to be home before 5am.

i am so going to pay for this tomorrow. there is an 80s party on the night after vic gets here, i’m debating if i want to share her with the world or keep to myself a little longer.

i’m off for drinking and dancing and planning suitable punishments.

have a good night all, whatever you chose to do.

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it’s 8:30pm, do you know…

July 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

…where you wife is? lol.
one of the things that i am is a worry wart. when i don’t know where vic is, i worry about her. it’ ms not a lack of trust thing, it’s the “she’s the best thing to happen in my life and i’d be devastated if anything happened to her” school of thought. and i’m mr. worse case scenario. pick a scenario and i’ll come up with the worst possible train of thought and follow it to it’s logical conclusion.
this may help in some situations but more often than not, it’s a complete disaster. i haven’t spoke to vic since thursday and i can’t remember if she was supposed to come back from her mom’s yesterday or today. and that there is no email, just makes me worry more.

i’m sure vic’s fine and i’m over-reacting. i haven’t started skimming the knoxville news. yet.

i’m supposed to go this pride party tonight, but i don’t want to go and have made contact with vic at all, so dilemmas, dilemmas.

i’m going to make a few calls. i’ll be back in a bit.

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late afternoon round-up

July 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

Saturday-8: “Kid Stuff”

  1. What’s the one memory of your childhood that makes you laugh everytime you look back?

    the first book my mother ever bought me was toodles the taxi, i learned to read it, then i ate it, page by page.

  2. Everyone had a favorite toy, pet, blanket, etc. What was your favorite thing as a kid?

    my books.

  3. What was the most idiodic thing you did when you were a kid?

    hmmm, i have to pick one?

  4. Who was your best friend as a kid?

    i was pretty much a loner, i had my books.

  5. Is there anything that you did when you were a kid that you still do to this day? For example, you might have a bad habit of biting your finger nails.

    still biting my nails and still reading almost anything i put my hands on

  6. Who did you look up to as a kid?

    my mother

  7. What was your favorite snack as a kid?

    sweet and salt prunes (a chinese delicacy, that’s popular in trinidad)

  8. What’s your fondest memory as a kid?

    on the 23rd of every month my mother would get me a book.

oh my… lol…  a sign from god (be careful what you wish for)

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stuff like this bothers me

July 5, 2003 — Leave a comment

sex tourism in jamaica

what saddens me is that this is so prevalent all over the caribbean, that people will automatically make assumptions about vic and i. i expect to hear at least one completely stupid fucking comment while she’s here.

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