perfectionist with a god complex
and i’m back.
the rain stopped the nanosecond i stepped out the door. but i have very idle friends who are trying to cheer me up with some of the surreal stuff that’s all over the internet…
and then i read this which appeals to me greatly, so slowly but surely my mood is improving. i may not even have to sit and drink alone on my porch tonight.
well, it appears that the dry season is now officially over. i’m sitting here listening to the rain beat a tattoo on the roof. i love the rain, the sound on the roof, the smell of hot asphalt after the rain falls, cars swishing by in the wet.
it hasn’t done anything for the heat, it’s still sweltering here. now we’re just hot and wet.
good vibes has updated the masturbation month page, the theme this year is “I’d rather be masturbating.”, cute although i’m indulging because i’m not getting any, although mutual masturbation is quite lovely.
can anyone explain to me why in this day and age, it still takes anything to three weeks to get from one end of the caribbean to another or why in an organisation the siz and scope of the INS or as it’s now known, the department of homeland security immigraiton division, why there aren’t back up systems?
you can’t tell me where my application is because the system is down?
what the fuck is that? and you don’t know when it will be back up?
and i can’t get pissed off at these people, because they hold my fucking life in their hands. i don’t even know if it’s safe to vent online.
sigh, i’m going to play in the rain, something has to make this day better.
i took the day off, cause i wasn’t feeling well and i’m cruising the usual places, reading and trying to keep my head up and then i come across stuff like this…
one of the reasons i’ve wanted to leave trinidad is to give my daughters greater opportunities, but of late, it seems that the rights of women are being eroded more and more with each passing day. i remember seeing this article a couple weeks ago and sighing heavily but this latest statement affects the international community as well. if you don’t go to the link, here is the crux of the matter:
“The American delegation joined with Iran, Pakistan, Sudan, Libya and others in efforts to delete a phrase – included in previously agreed-upon UN statements dating back a decade – that calls on countries to condemn violence against women and “refrain from invoking any custom, tradition or religious consideration” to avoid the obligation to stop the violence.
It joined objections to a passage about women in armed conflict, aligning itself with fundamentalist regimes in trying to change a reference to “forced pregnancy” – listed along with murder, rape, systematic rape and sexual slavery as by-products of war and societies emerging from conflict. The term “forced pregnancy” is seen by some anti-abortion groups as a pretext for promoting abortion.
“I don’t think we’re aligning ourselves with countries who have bad records on human rights,” said Ellen Sauerbrey, a former Republican candidate for Maryland governor and President George W. Bush’s chief representative to the commission.”
it goes on but you’ll have to read it for yourself and draw your own conclusions.
in my other reading, i came across a tidbit about excessive polictical correctness in a LA Times review of The Language Police (you may need to subscribe, but it’s free)
i’m going to watch er, maybe that will cheer me up
may is national masturbation month. if you’re appalled, too fucking bad, move on. if you’re interested read on…
“Good Vibrations began celebrating National Masturbation Month in 1995 because we wanted to highlight the importance of masturbation for nearly everyone: it’s safe, it’s healthy, it’s free, it’s pleasurable and it helps people get to know their bodies and their sexual responses. Of all the kinds of sex people can have, masturbation is the most universal and important, yet few people talk about it freely — worse, many people still feel it is “second best” or problematic in some way. National Masturbation Month lets us emphasize how great it is: it’s natural, common and fun!”
good vibrations haven’t updated their page for this year yet, but here is the url for further details
there is also the masturbate for peace website, which i can’t be bothered to look for right now but i’m sure you all know how to use google and yahoo.
last night i went to read and fell asleep just after 7pm, i just got up. what’s bothering me, is that even with close to 12 hours sleep i’m still tired. i was thinking a trip to the dr might be useful, but i doubt this lethargy is physical. it’s hard to focussed or drum up energy when your centre is missing.
i miss victoria. it’s really like a piece of my soul is missing and today i have to deal with more bureacracy. so the wait continues.
one of my favourite web boards tribelife is back
it’s a caribbean centred message board, lively dicsussion and interesting topics, feel free to check it out, join, post if you feel like.
i’m trying to pysche myself up to go to work. i would really love to just crawl back in to bed.
top 5 reasons i should go to work:
5. i have stuff to do.
4. people are relying on me
3. it’s something to do
2. i need the money
1. i really need the money.
in other job related developments i called the guy that said i was selling myself cheap, he said he’d get back to me at the end of the month (yesterday), guess what… he’s out for the week. is that a sign of what.
ok, i can do this, walk away from the computer, have a shower, get dressed, go to work.
peace.