i`ve been under some pressure at the office, still am and will continue to be until this afternoon when we have a final presentation to the client at which point all hell will break loose, because it will either be approved and have to go finished art in under two weeks or we`ll have to go back to the drawing board and still get something ready to roll in two weeks.
damned if you do and damned if you don`t either way. it`s what i live for but i think i would deal with it better if i was able to focus, i would really like to put away this immigration situation and move on. but it`s never that easy, this has been the fulcrum upon which my life has hinged for the last two and a half years.
the point at which i took this job was to regain some control of my life, our lives. i wasn`t giving up, i just wasn`t it letting it become the overwhelming priority in my life. i found a job i liked, i was physically closer to vic and in theory at least we could see each other more frequently. i`d settled in, i could focus on the day to day, the mundane. and now it`s back; the crux of my unhappiness; the uncertainty.
i`m distracted, uncommitted and unfocussed and although it`s not brain surgery i`m doing, i take pride in my work and those are key elements in bad work. i just want to know, to have some fixed to hold on to, so i can put away the wondering, consternation and all the other products of an over active imagination, or at least put them to productive use.
i do feel a whole lot better today.
a couple of asides, one last touch on roald dahl, here is a list of all his screen credits, both PTG and LW were right about the appearance of the stories.
and i`ve been listening to the most amazing album since last night, i am a huge fan of spaghetti westerns and into my grubby little hands came Le Colonne Sonore Originali Dei Film Di Sergio Leone, basically music from all the sergio leone westerns. all i can say is ennio morricone is a genius. i haven`t been find this album on amazon or allmusic so there is no link but trust me on this, it kicks all kinds of major ass.