keep searching, keep searching, you’ll find it…

not quite bright eyed and bushy tailed but awake, just managed to catch the beginning of the race.

the dreams are back and oh my… just thinking about it… i’m getting shivers. i’m trying to keep myself under control. i want share these dreams but i think they’ll lose some of their poignance. dammit i want vic here now.

two weeks from now we’ll be getting ready for the family soiree, vic gets to meet the girls and my mother and grandmother.

there is show much i want to show vic, but i’m torn, we have so little time together, can i bear to share her companionship with anyone else? i want to be selfish, keep her to myself, wrap her up in my arms and never let her go. 12 days left.

i just found this gem on girlunderway’s journal, which is the saturday slant from the link listed as quizzes & memes in the entertainments section in that column on the right:

What is your most common fantasy?

While sitting in traffic or waiting on-queue somewhere, where does your mind drift? Is it to a moonlit tropical beach, a dream man (or woman) in your arms? Perhaps you wander to a memory of coming in from a long day of snowball fights, sledding, and making snow angels to be greeted by Mom’s hot chocolate. Do you fantasize about how you would spend a fortune? We all day dream; we all have one or two day dreams that occupy our minds more often than others. What is your most common fantasy?

i’m not sure i’m quite ready to answer this yet, they all revolve around the dreams, so i’m going to leave it here for a little bit, maybe later…

in the mean time here’s a sunday what if (this one that’s up now is too depressing, so here’s the one from june 8 (that’s the next one in the list):

if you could have witnessed one event in history, what would you want to have seen?

guttenberg’s first print run.

f1 just finished, it’s ralph, JMP and michael, in that order. with michael leading the driver’s championships by eight points. and ferrari the constructors by three points. the rest of this season is going be very interesting.

back to bed, see if the dreams continue. i’ll be back later.